baddieprincess o6*

2008-08-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

i dont wish to continue this life.

i really dont understand why you have to do this to me.

but whatever,sorry.im not gonna bother anything much about you.

you lied to me,partly is also my fault.most of it is my fault.i do it wrong first.i dont expect any forgiveness from you.i really appreaciate how much you love me but just too bad,after knowing that what you have done towards me,thinking back about the past and everything that you have done for me so much.i felt that,im very silly and stupid to believe every little single words that you've said to me.you dont even know how much i wanted to change for you and be yours.but never expected you will do this to me too.so i dont feel angry or even sad over your doing.just kinda disappointed in you.so my dear,i hope you can get someone else that truly loves you.i dont worth your love at all.

how much you love me,is just like how much i love him.even no matter how much you have done for me,my love will never change.simply i love him.love is selfish,but i just wanna be with him.i do feel touch n even tears how much you have done for me.but too bad,my heart only have him.he's just like me,know how much you love me and how much i love him.but just too bad,i dont mean to treat you this way and this is how he treat me back too.maybe towards you,i did not give any chance for you to explain but i did,it just that you never realize it.
take care my dear,i will never forget how much you have done for me.

whatever happens to me,i will never regret with my decision to stay and be with him,always stand by his side forever.just like how you have done it to me.i sincerely apologise to you that i've betrayed you at your back lots of time.

anyway,baby.

i miss you badly ever since the day,you have went overseas.

take care yourself and i hope you will be back soon.

every little single words that i've said to you is true.

i'm a straight forward person,i hope that i never scare you away.

i dont wish you to be the same like me,fear and afraid of someone who love you so much.

iloveyou baby.muacks .)

2008-06-14T23:02:00.003+08:00

i guess,i forever will not get any answer from you.
even whatever qustion i've ask you,you choose not to even reply.
just let me know,is either you answer me if not you can just tell me you dont wanna answer me anything.stop avoiding and makes me wondering so much,will you.
i've tried my best and to do my part.you choose to keep everything from me and keep quiet.
hide everything from me so wth you want from me and what am i suppose to do to make us not to quarrel anymore?to turn everything smooth for us?
our quarrel makes me really damn tired of everything.
not the first time i wanna let go everything.what you know is to shout when we start to talk everything out.
no matter how much time we give each other,we wont change for each other.
why not just go your way,find someone else that you truly want?
everyone say the same thing even the books prove it to me too.
maybe is really good for us to let go everything.to end everything.
i dont wish too.this is not i want.but it seems that you want it.if not you will try to do it well for this.the way you show me is just like you dont even care.this is how you handle it?
since you give me your last answer,telling me there's nothing to say.means there's nothing to talk between both of us,let's not wasting time on each other.you are free.
i guess,you waited for this day quite long.
i seriously upset over you,but i feel too tired to continue too.
i shouldnt have believe,im such a fool to listen you to make myself suffer.

i wanna leave here!bring me out of singapore!

2008-06-10T15:19:00.002+08:00

maybe all along people who are with me always think that my friends are much more impt than the one that i love.but i did not.
i know you always think that.just because i do have much more things to chat with my friends than you.
everyone have their own friends and freedom.you are controlling mine.
you are a selfish idiot.is not people wanna break us but too many people ask me to let go.
after all is my decision,i choose to hold on after so many chances that i have given you,things have not been smooth for us still i dont mind being suffer just because iloveyou.
but you always expect me to give in to you and listen to what you say.
but ask yourself,you always anyhow throw your bloody temper towards me for nothing.
i guess,no manners is you but not me.the one who always hanging up my call is you.
even small matter you also wanna quarrel.
dont always think that whatever you say i have to do it too.
seriously pissed off with your fucking attitude too.dont say others but yourself too.
want me to prove to you that you are wrong i guess is hard too.
we both are stubborn,too stubborn until im sorry,im letting go everything between you and me.
feel sick and tired of you.i dont deny i always doubt you and never trust you because the time i wanna trust you is the time you make me disappointed in you.
there's nothing much to talk about it.the quarrels that we had,did not make our love strong but everything is breaking into pieces.
your heart and mind still have her,isnt it true?she's the only girl who give in to you too much until you are taking advantage of girls.you never ones think that you are at fault.
you make me feel that you never ones serious with me before.im just that some one spare for you to use and to be there for you.i never fail to be there for you,you know that too.
i choose to stop because you make me do so.
i believe you can do it.letting me go is very easy thing for you to do it.finding other girls is much more easy for you.wish you all the best then.hopefully,you find someone that you really love.and show your care and concern towards her.
a true love to a girl is to show everything out.but you did not.you make me cant feel your care and concern so dont talk about your love to me.i totally cant feel it at all.
stop telling me all those bull shit stuffs that you say you wouldnt do at all.yesterday,you have said something that you shouldnt even said.thanks,but i have seen your true colour.
dont always think that i will always return to you even i have do it so many times.
dont dare to test me and dont be proud of yourself.
i choose not to play you because i have feeling towards you.

2008-06-09T15:39:00.003+08:00

is it so difficult to understand you?
why do you choose to hide everything to yourself.
why do you stop everything and you actually makes me stop everything too.
i dont understand how you bloody handle your relationship.
you make me feel sick and tired.you are so selfish to me.
you only bother how you feel but nobody else.telling me you wanna take care of me.
this is how you show your care and concern,but sorry i cant feel it at all.
when i needa your care and concern you wasnt there.what you do is just enjoy yourself.
when you are sick you just want people to bother you and know you are sick and taking care of you 24/7.
quarrels make me irritated and consider alot.you make me upset.
i intend to give up.chances given and i tired but i think that we dont suit each other.
you know what you want but as for me,i dont know.yes im still young.
i dont know what i wanna do and stuffs.no point forcing me telling me what to do.
im sorry.im leaving you soon.i just hope to be with you and enjoy the time with you.
im selfish too.but i just cant let you know so much.

im sick.really sick.not love sick.

im half dead at home. .( help!

2008-06-06T13:28:00.002+08:00

i ve quit my job. .)
taking long break and i will be finding job soon.

repeating history?

i feel tired this kinda life.

going back with you,really thought everything will change but i guess is still the same.

after all,i dont understand you.i appreaciate everything that you have done for me.

i had enough with you by your nonsense.im sorry but i guess i did my best but if you think i did not im sorry but i will just leave your life and you go find someone else better than me.

i dont deny i dont have confidence in myself as i think that i aint that someone that you want.

but you,yourself just want someone to be there for you and always accompany you?isnt it true.

everything takes time but human always force till nobody dont want anything and rather stay single the best.

well,everyone want freedom but everyone just wanna bother and control.

just one word: love.

everyone do get jealous and so they will tend to care.

but somethings will turn sweet or sour.

i guess our situation have turn sour.we dont understand each other at all.

we have different goals.at least you know what you want.im happy for you.

im happy knowing you,the time having you,enjoy being with you,the care and concern that you show.but just too bad i cant feel your love towards me.

everything is over. .) we are still friends.

2008-05-20T03:19:00.003+08:00

it's been so long that i never update my blog.
well,nothing much to say.
everyone is saying i gain weight and im getting very round now.
going to start work tomorrow again.gonna be damn bored.
still,have to work if not i will not get any income.im getting POOR!no money!
spenting alot just for only for two weeks.mummy control my money as i ve spent too much till she's afraid i might spent all my money inside the bank. .(

anyway,just wanna say i do miss my classmate even thou i leave the school already.
wanted to stop working but still i choose back the same place to work but im not going to work so often like how i use to work in the past.i do miss most of the cust there too.
everyone of them treat me very nice,love and dote me.

i gonna miss my beloved duckie as she's going thailand soon.
just meet her up today and realise she's also round alot.
have a nice day with her today even thou we are doing nothing,just sitting down at starbucks chit-chat for hours.just take care yourself and enjoy your trip.dont think so much.

miss most of you out there who i never meet up for quite long.so hope to see you guys soon if we got the TIME. .) always love.

2007-12-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

feeling tired at work.
feel so sucks.but never mind. =)
hmm,what should i post?
well,i couldn't sleep at the moment but everyone asking me to sleep early.
gonna wake up early later =\ at 7am.
going to see doctor,after that going down to find my sweet gf to do my hair?then going to meet up my godpa to pass him his xmas present.
everyday having a long day outside. =^

tuesday,
attend school for exams,
thanks to you again.helping me again and again.
if i really get to next year i really have to study.can i don't?hais.
after school went to east point together with eugene,hock ann and gf to repair eugene and my phone.after that,accompany eugene to had lunch and he bloody lie to me to go to the food court and don't wanna eat!i was rushing time but i still put time for him.humph.still wait until his friends arrived then my gf and i left.
went down to city hall to meet up mlyj.walk to suntec to find the mp3 shop because my gf wanna repair her mp3 but too bad,they say they can't repair.haha.i dont't know what she shy about.i keep help her to ask around to find the shop!take train down to town and went to taka.
thanks my dear gf n mlyj accompany me to buy xmas present.
i spent 100plus.i still got more to buy. =)
after shopping meet up felicia to pass her,her xmas present.
had a long chat with felicia and her bf.left around evening.

went down to work place to pass xmas present for my sweet gf.

always love you my sweet gf,i feel so happy knowing you and having you around.sorry to give you so many troubles and worries.thanks for your treats. =)

went back home around 11plus.baby send me out to the bus stop.
so busy and nice of me!buy stuffs for people got to travel down to pass it to them.
went home and came out again to meet up my dear gonggong.went to playground,after that went to mac to eat corn!

wednesday,
went to work.totally got no mood.
i don't know why. =?
went home str8 after work.
went out to mac with mummy to buy corn eat!

thursday,
actually got work but last min tell them that i can't work.
woke up around 11plus.take my time,don't know what i'm doing also.
after parents went out to work me and my brother smoke.
call my dear darling and chat with her till 12plus.
after hang,prepared myself.went to maybank to take cash.
took bus down to orq to find my dear babe to give her surprise and pass her,her xmas present.
she was shock.ate pasta at there.after her work,accompany her see doctor.
after seeing doctor,ate med,went to suntec.happy outing with her today.
suddenly daddy called me,ask me to go down to his office to do his printer.so took train down to amk,he came and fetch me.leave his office around 7plus and i was late to meet up my baby at yishun!took cab down to find him.went over his house.damn bored!
left his house around 10plus?took bus back home,he went down to work place while i can't go down.stupid him.anw,i'm glad that he regret going down because he got to wait for xiao qiang to finish work then he can go back camp together with him.
walking back home that time,brother called.ask him came down and accompany me to go buy corn and cheesburger!growing fat and indeed i grow fat.damn it.

2007-11-25T13:16:00.001+08:00

too long never post.
suddenly dont know what to post about.
anyway,i just came back from msia.
never really enjoy myself there but i guess i still spent quite alot.
i'm gaining weight.getting fat back again.actually was 50kg but now i gain 3kg.
damn it.i'm going on diet again. =(
my schedule is damn pack at the moment,but i will meet up my dear sister who need my help and meet up my pl gf who miss me alot.hehe.i will be off on weekends so yup.
but this weekend i'm busy so i'm sorry.
maybe going down woody later to find my dear baby.if not i guess gonna meet some other day.
tomorrow going to attend school after that going to have dinner with captain.
i miss him so much.he's the best godpa that i love.
i miss thomas papa and chris mummy too,i do enjoy my work when they are around.
but now,captain and mr sim is not going to come down woody because of the bitch.damn it.
i feel sick and tired of working there at times.
will be meeting my dear babe on saturday.hmm,wondering what she gonna do.
sunday going msia again i guess.dont feel like going. =\
i do miss mljy,but i guess is over. =)

the people who,i miss:

my dear pl gf and my sister jl.

my dear gonggong who always be there for me to brighten my day.

zzenn the one which never disappoint me.

the people at woody green even thou we got age gap but still i enjoy myself there. =)

captain nephew name leon also.haha.

my dear gf,funny sister(which is a guy) and bro in my class.haha.

the family which is my cute felicia and my beloved jerome daddy.

the fish but the fish will never swim back to me even thou we are still friends. =(

i guess is all faded away.

2007-11-12T13:28:00.000+08:00

today,
wanted to attend but never attend to school.
damn hell headache.woke up around 12plus.
working later. =\

anyone have long hair wanna cut short hair?
if yes just contact me.it will be free for everything. =)

friday,
george birthday alot of people attend but it was not that fun.
but very fun playing with winston.
damn hell busy when i reach work place.work until 11pm.
my dear pl gf never come down =(
wanted to go home together with shirley but ended up kenny send me back home.
meet up gonggong around 12am.reach home around 1am.

saturday,
meet up gonggong for breakfast.
after that went home awhile,meet up her again together with mummy to amk hub.
huichen reach around 12pm and she went off together with gonggong.
accompany mummy to town.she bought two FION bags.
i'm off today but i still went down to work because cherly last min never work.
no guys working so i'm doing guys job for the day. =)

yesterday,
meet up karling and pass her,her present.
hope you like it. =)
wanted to have dinner with my parents but never because i ate steamboat with karling.
reach home around 6plus.feel damn tired and feel like sleeping.around 8plus went out again to central to meet up fion.i miss her. =) she's around amk so meet her up awhile after that went to amk hub wanted to meet up gonggong.who knows she end work so early and she never tell me!walk around amk hub saw cherly.accompany her shop awhile after that send her to bus stop.walk back house downstair to emet up gonggong there.

i'm just busy wit my work and just attend school wasting my time.
is not that i never bother you.i'm also not very busy going out to meet up people.
so don't think too much.oh btw,you got your darling to accompany you so dont worry =)

my dear felicia,
dont bother about what they say.
they got bad mouth and always never brush their teeth.
i blif you dont need those kinda frens in your life so is ok.
i miss and loveyou alright.huggs. <3

2007-11-09T15:02:00.000+08:00

everyday work until midnight then reach home.
never attend to school today.very tired.going work later.
will get to see my pl gf later.haha.i missyou pl gf.<3
will be very busy later at work.damn.hopefully,it will light my day.
happy beloved birthday george. =)
i miss you baby,days just pass so fast.
will get to see you soon after you are out.hopefully you will not get in for the 9days.
if you going in i guess i got to work and spent my time there.

tuesday,
after work wait for kelvin.
accompany her to drink but she leave early than me.
wanted to go home but still stuck at woody.
went to ate supper with the group of friends.
reach home around 2plus.daddy drink back again.never bother.
just go to bed and sleep.

wednesday,
alice birthday,closing should be 1 but end at 2.
thanks my dear for sending me home this few days. =)

thursday,
woke up at 12plus.if wendi never call me i'm still sleeping.
meet her for lunch after that went home to sleep.
sebas wanna meet me and ask me to go over his office there and sleep.crazy him.
really damn hell headache.sleep for an hour went to work.
start work at 5pm.5 to 7pm totally got no cust.manager went to eat dinner with one of the guy cust.so everyone just watch tv,play cards and dice.
help coco drink one cup of beer.really feel like sleeping!manager reach around 8plus?
leave around 9plus.end work at 12am.

the people whom i miss <3
my dear babe,pl gf and my gf and

stupid fish.never even contact me.when are you going to meet me!
i missyou.take care. =)

breaddie is busy with her school stuffs and her darling.
i'm also busy with my work and just attend school to waste my time there.
take care yourself my dear.play well for your match. =)
i missyou too. =)

2007-11-06T14:34:00.000+08:00

things are not going right.

i really feel that i'm so silly and i'm such a fool of everything.

you make me fall for you deeply ended up telling me you don't believe in long relationship.

you got a brighter future who plan everything.

as you said you gonna leave i can't stop you.i know what's the reason.

i still have a very long way to learn.i just don't wish to think so much and be the one suffering.

the hurt is already there and i had enuff.tears because of you,not enuff sleep and totally no mood for everything.make me feel so sick and weak.sucks!

i don't wish to be the one who concern about everything and doing it alone.

is either treasure this 5months before you leave if not just let go everything.

things just spinning my head this few days making me so fuck up.

last thurs to sat working.sunday went out with my dear pl gf.
we chat alot and i spent alot.i've spent 300bucks per month.damn.
reach home around 8plus eat my dinner.meet up gonggong around 10plus.
reach home around 11plus.sleep around 3pm.
yesterday,woke up at 7plus.went to prepared myself,attend school.
got test!damn it.
i really feel guilty ok.i thankyou for everything alright.
i know there's nothing i can repay you.to only stay just because of you.
you make me feel touch well you stop me from something that i can't do.
leave school after test.when to tm to ate lunch with my classmate after that went to ernie house to sleep.actually start work at 4pm but i went at 5pm.
saw those manager and shareholder meeting kinda scare me.
after meeting they enjoy there.totally no mood working and attitude one of the shareholder name stanley.if you never keep singing the generator will not on and off.
all cust went off around 9plus going 10.the lights keep on and off itself make me feel like sleeping.
captain and mr sim came over around 10pm.
they actually fix it everything ok but they went back to make it on n off again.
they are very funny and damn purposely but is a good thing that what they have done.
wasting company money to call idiots to come down and repair.haha.
disturb captain because he smoke alot when he drink.
manager keep call me to stay and work.actually finish work at 10 ended up finish at 12am.
ah hai,mic and alice came down drink and watch tv.so free of them.three of them look so tired don't know why still wanna come down.the whole woody only got 7cust.
walking back home alone,totally no mood and don't know what to do.thinking lots.

never attend to school today.feel so tired.
woke up around 12pm.sorry my dear gf and ernie that i never attend to school.
went to have lunch with my parents and brother around 1plus.
just reach home not long.going to prepare myself and go to work soon. =\

2007-10-31T23:57:00.000+08:00

have not been updating for more than one week.

well,alot of things have been happening.

nothing good and i don't wish to bother.

i know i'm in the fault for some stuffs.whatever.

i'm not gonna care and i guess i gonna leave. =)

i just remember monday and tuesday i attend to school.
accompany my girlfriend.
wednesday work because of baby.
thursday work till saturday.
thursday and friday after work went to baby house to sleep.
after work just drink till morning 4am than reach his house.
saturday night meet up my dear babe go back to aunt house and stay.
sunday morning,went to jb with family to have breakfast,lunch and dinner.
reach singapore around evening.went to meet up babe and drink.
she's kinda drunk and we reach aunt house around 11plus.
she straight away sleep on the bed and guess what.i got a love bite from her.
very deep and got blue-black.
never expect the secrets just break so fast.they know i never went back to aunt house to stay on thursday and friday.return back the key to aunt on monday morning.
went back home start war with my parents.i'm really sick and tired.
yes i'm fault that i lie to them.i'm changing to worst?well,everyone do change.
i made them disappointed in me.i'm sucks ok.
went to work after talking to them.reach home around 11plus.
tuesday attend school.woke up at 730 because of wendi.
went down to woody after school.drink together with wendi and see baby working.
she learn something there.i drink more than her.
today,woke up at 730 but went back to sleep because is raining heavily and i'm headache!
woke up around 11plus prepared myself,went to school.
wanted to stay in school to watch charlotte match,yes im a liar.
i feel so awkward.you have your darling is more than enuff.i'm not jealous and i don't expect anything from you.i'm happy for you that you are happy without me around.
wanted to meet up baby for dinner but end up he got to work so i went to hougang with wendi.
meet up gonggong at hougang together with huichen.accompany and send her back home and went back home together with gongong.bought mac for parents and brother but mummy never eat because she's angry.stupid brother ask me to buy because he said that they are hungry.
i don't know how to start the conversation so i kept quiet and just leave the food there and never talk to them.i do felt that im in the fault but still,is my life.
i will just walk away. =) say bye to you guys and i will just leave the house one day.

2007-10-22T18:02:00.000+08:00

20th oct 2007,sat
woke up around afternoon.
prepare myself and everything went to work.
work till 2am,take cab went back home.
baby bring his friends down to drink.kinda pissed with him and quarrel with him in the afternoon.i dont nothing wrong what.why should i scare.if you wanna play just go ahead.ah hai came down and he keep bully me.stupid him.humph.
i'm happily working and singing songs with cath.
having fun at there. =)

21th oct 2007,sunday
woke up at 10.aunt came into the room and wake me up twice.
damn hell tired.slept at 4plus because i was on the phone with baby last night.
prepare food for dogs after that prepare myself.
went to prima restuarant with aunt,her husband and two of my cousin.
meet up babe around 3pm at east coast.play roller blade with her for two hours.
babe say she saw that bitch friend.stop acting so childish bitch.wanna scold others when you are scolding yourself too.haha.don't make a fool of yourself alright.
i bought strawberry ice cream for her.she just blash up.damn funny.
i promise you i will bought it for you.i'm honour to be the first one to buy ice cream for you.
on our way to town,went to sushi tei to have our dinner but stupid sharon never really eat much and she don't even like the food there.i eat more than she do.so full and she still went to mac to eat fries!thanks babe.making me fat again. =\
she accompany me back to aunt house.pack my stuff after that went to bathe.she in the room waiting for me to get myself done.she accompany back home and she went down to town again.
on our back home,on the bus i wanted to sleep already but i never.i cheer her up and make her blash again.so funny.don't shy my dear.only me who understand you. =) hehe.

today,
woke up around 12plus
never attend school again.
i know i make disappointed in you again my dear.
went out to have lunch with my parents at jack's place.
leave there around 1plus,head to vivo to return uniform.
meet up sebas at vivo.chat with him for one hour plus.kinda scare but he never do anything to me.i'm damn direct to him by what i said.whatever it is.we are impossible. =)
reach home around 5plus,sleep in his car =\
not going to have my dinner already.
i miss baby.
i don't wish to know anything more so shut up.
i'm shutting off my brain about whatever thing is going on.
is the past and i'm not going to bother.but if things really happen,i'm not going to let it off so easily.hopefully,there wont be any war going on.

2007-10-20T03:29:00.000+08:00

i jus reach my aunt house.
aunt coming back later.6am reach sg.
gongong can't stay here already because aunt comin back.
i miss staying with gongong.hehe.
i drink but not alot.baby drink alot.well,im not gonna bother.
his friend name sebas talk to me.but we don't know that we are wilson friend.
he ask if i know wilson i tell him say i know.wilson came together with alex.
alex tell me that sebas like me.oh well,im not gonna bother.haha.
guess tonight will be the last night happily hanging out at woody with them.
really fun and happy.
i start work at 4pm.there's no cust at all till 8pm.
captain is really a cool guy.he's making a life concert there.
the way he play guitar plus his singing.really damn nice.
shirley cook really nice.she cook crab and prawn.very fresh and nice.
smoking away with them time pass very fast.finish work at 12am but i stay until 230 because of baby.i really enjoy with them but kinda pissed with baby,the way he drink.whatever.sucks!
his friend tell me about him and i did use my own eyes to see what he's doing.
ah hai and ah seng keep disturb him.ah seng wanted to send me back but wilson don't allow.everyone call him to send me but he never.is ok.i already know he not gonna send me back home.i guess baby sleep already.i don't know why do you havee to spoil your health this way but i know is your life.i'm aint that type of girl that you want but let it be if you want it this way.we will see how things going on.i don't wish to bother but still i care.i hope you are fine.guess
i going to turn in soon?tmr still got work.next week going to attend school. =\
i wish i can but i can't.i don't know how long you can wait.i don't wish to even think.

2007-10-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

today,
kinda promise martin that i will attend to school but i never attend.
he came over and accompany me.i no longer have that feeling towards you anymore.
you just treating me like nobody business.is ok.ever since the day i know you till now.
haha.whatever.your life sucks don't make my life sucks can already.
he stay until 2pm.i sleep on his shoulder,really damn tired.he keep call my phone and wake me up.sorry baby that i never tell you he's coming over.send him off and i had my lunch alone!
went back home and change to go swimming alone.swim for a hour i guess.
bathe and prepare everything meet up mummy for dinner and guess what daddy damn idiot.fuck man.really damn pissed off with him.
went down to chinatown to have dinner and he fetch me back.bought kfc for the dogs.
gongong said that the dog is so xin fu.we both feed the dogs and we both also eat.haha.
after feeding them we went to swimming.weijian korkor also swim.he's gongong ou xiang.
damn funny.but he really swim very fast,damn cool.
the lights off at 10pm and we come back together.took a bath.
baby just reach here not long,going out later. =)

my dear babe,thanks for treating me so nice.

really.but i don't want it.i don't want you to spend money on me.

i gonna earn money myself but i know i wont be damn rich like you do.

i will still be here and love you alright.

waiting for this sunday,is just only you and me.

2007-10-17T13:22:00.000+08:00

woke up not long.
never attend to school and i guess i'm not going to attend this week.
early morning martin call me.surprise that he call me but i never pick up.
i'm having headache.going back home later then going to fetch my babe later.

baby coming over at night.
now i really understand you and i'm going to hack care.
this is what you prove it to me.what's love?
i really don't understand i really don't know what i'm doing.
i did my part and i'm a pamper kid that i dislike people not to bother about me but guess what.i learn not to bother about people already.because i'm a failure to people out there.i'm giving up myself and people around me i guess.losing people around is getting more?
people can make me upset but i seems to be wrong that i can't make people disappointed.
nobody can promise me anything.i never wanna promise anything to anyone too.
of cause to those people that i have promise in my list only i know i will do it.

2007-10-17T02:06:00.001+08:00

yseterday night sleep around 4plus?
woke up around 8plus in the morning.
lying on the sofa resting.damn hell tired but i can't get to sleep.
chat on the phone with baby until 10plus.
prepare myself get out of the house,went down to orq to find my dear babe.
accompany her until she finish work.her day really sucks.
never expect things will turn out this way,but it happen.
you are really damn sucks and you really don't have the right to even love her.
really feel damn hell disappointed in you even thou i don't know you.you really damn hell sucks.
my dear babe,im here always love you alright.don't worry that i'm gonna leave you alone because i won't alright.i believe my dear will be strong.
babe accompany to my work place and she gonna fetch me after my work this coming sat and stay together with me.

i don't know and i don't care alright.

i don't wish to know,whatever you say i just listen.

that's it,you can't prove to me that i can trust you.

i just clear what i'm doing with no fears.

iloveyou <3

i'm sucks and to people out there i might be changing and maybe change alot.
i don't wish to bother alright.everyone have their own thinking. =)

i wanna quit school and i really don't intend to continue study this course.
i'm not making any effort because i don't even wanna study it.
i don't have the heart to even study now.of cause i will still study and i wanna study the course that i want but i'm scare and i really got no confidence to even study well if i really study private.fuck man!

2007-10-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

today,
wanted to attend school but i never.
alarm wake me up but i off it and went back to sleep.
woke up around 1pm.stay at home the whole day.
doing housework and do my project.sucks man.
i hate projects,i really feel like giving up and just stop studying this course.damn it.
huichen came over and we watch death note together.end up gonggong and her fall asleep!
went out of the house around 8pm?have dinner with my parents.went home to take stuffs and accompany daddy to police station to make report.after that,he fetch me back to aunt house.

my dear don't bother what that fucker say la ok.
im here always love and missyou ok.muacks. =)
if you think you can threaten and gonna touch sharon just go ahead.
i tell you,you already lose and you are a loser ever since the day you have contact sharon and whatever you say sharon you are scolding yourself.you are a girl too.
do you really think that you are a winner.c'mon you can if you want but you do it in a wrong way.
this is how you get attention from me?i tell you,i don't give a damn.
using this way gonna hurt my gf.haha.forget it alright.
we are clear with what we are doing and we don't even scare what you say and do.
sharon gonna stick with me forever. <3
there's no why that i love sharon.love don't need any reason.you should know.
so many people close to me,ask yourself why do you have to find sharon and aim her just because she's a passive?haha.passive aint that weak as you think.don't underestimate them especially her.she may look weak to you but let me remind you,go think if you can take the conseqences by her.
by the way,i not only have sharon as my gf.if you think that you know me longer than her and understand me well than her then i shall tell you i aint the fiona that you know before.
whoever who really understand me will be more awake by what they are doing.
don't you find that you are childish by what you have done?do you really think police can't find private numbers?if you think they can't there won't be a low crime in singapore.my dear,love a person should use a better way to woo a person.using a good way to get attention from me.but you already give me a very bad impression of yours.to me,forgive and forget.everyone deserve a chance but if you not gonna stop and continue it and think that you aint wrong by what you have done than just go ahead.i can't stop you and i won't stop you.you will just make me feel disappointed in you and you are just disgrace yourself by what you have done.
love me isn't using this way to treat my close friends around me.take it or leave it alright.

2007-10-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

today,
sleep together with sharon,really feel confortable sleeping with you by my side.
woke up around 2plus.
preapare myself get out of the house around 3plus.
reach amk around 4plus.went to ntuc to bought dish.
sharon cooking for us to eat.iloveyou babe.
her cooking really nice even my parents also say is nice.
kinda quarrel with my parents about my work.
i know they concern about me,i'm really thinking whether should i quit.
i already know what they will say and how they will react.
whatever it is.

tomorrow reopen school.damn it.
im tired and i still haven't done my project.
going to finish it up by tonight. =\

i missyou my dear.

take caer yourself.

iloveyou <3

2007-10-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

congrats to you my dear.
i read your post.is very funny,but i'm really happy for you.
take care yourself.you are miss by me.loves <3

today,
wake up around 1plus if i'm not wrong.
damn tired.i really don't know why.
left the house around 4plus.rushing to work.

i know i make you disappointed.
i know whatever i tell you are all lies.
i don't mean it but i'm sorry.
i don't wish to answer you anything and i really feel stress talking to you.
i know i'm the one who are in the fault but not you.
i sucks alright.i can't change like the past.
i advoid you because i know what you will do and say.
i'm not wild and i'm just getting naughty.

i don't know who is the person who tell you sharon coming over and stay.
since you wanna play nobody can stop you.
sharon is my girl alright.if you really think you gonna use this way to chase sharon away i guess you are wrong.this is a way to win someone heart you are really wrong.
whatever you wanna do nobody can stop.whatever you done i will never forget.
whatever you say her c'mon you are a girl too.
you are really sick by what you have done!what you ask her i'm here always to answer you.
since you got my contact no. c'mon just contact me and ask me for all you want.
i will answer everything to you since you don' believe what sharon say. =)

my dear i missyou.
i don't know and i don't wanna know whether is it the truth but yup.
i missyou that's all i know.yup.i hope is true but i never bother to think so much.
i already prepare even there's one day we not going to contact. =)

2007-10-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
do opening.damn it.i don't even know anything and luckily there's not much customer.
start work from 230pm end at 130am.
kinda mood swing but i was fine after that.
actually end work at 12 but because of baby,ah hai and his friends suddenly came over to drink.
accomapany them to drink.very tired but not yet drunk.accomapany baby drink martell. =)
you have me to accompany you to drink since you are alone.
that idiot not working today,hello my dear wilson.everyone asking where are you and you are at bq drinking with your camp friends.
reach home around 2plus,damn tired and i just doze off.

today,
wake up,around 12plus.
prepare myself and get out of the house around 1plus.
this few days keep raining. =\
went home to put things went to cq to find huichen.
left there around 4plus and went to work.
finish work at 10 and went to farrer park to meet my dear gongong.

i saw someone really look like you and it really sucks.
because you sucks.whatever.

i don't know and i don't wanna know.
is so messy la ok.
it sucks.i don't wanna think so much.
my decision sucks.everything sucks la ok.
im a sucker.i know i let you down again.
but yup.i never lie to you.

my dear,is ok and is your choice.

i'm serious for what i have said. =)

2007-10-11T11:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
this two days i drink alot,especially yesterday night. =\
but i'm not drunk.haha.
by the way,
happy beloved sweet 16th to you my dear xiao j.
sorry that i cannot attend but i will meet you up some day.
huggs <3

now i understand why he don't allow.i know is for my own good.
and now i understand what's the different as fanfan said.
i don't wanna think much and i'm not gonna bother.

i missyou but i believe we are really over,not even friends.
you choose it this way i guess.go ahead then.
i believe i done nothing wrong and i'm clear with what i'm doing without regrets.
whatever the past have been happening i never even bother to care.
i have let go whatever between you and me and i believe you letting go everything.really everything.

2007-10-10T12:57:00.000+08:00

haven't been updating for 7days?

8th oct,monday

happy beloved sweet 18th birthday to my dear breaddie.

hopefully,you are doing fine at hongkong.

happy beloved sweet 17th to my dear sister,ling.

i love and missyou.have time wil meet you up and pass you,your present.<3

busy working =\ but it was fun at times.
stupid wilson!i hate you.
fine with my new job.
every night work until midnight then return home.
yesterday night after work end at 1am went to drink together with wilson and some friends.
my face turn red very easily but i'm not drunk.stupid wilson said that i'm drunk.
hello,i'm still very clear and awake when i'm talking and i'm clear what i'm talking ok. =P
i still help him to drink,thanks man.always lose the game and make me help you drink.
he send me back home and went to drink together with his friends at cq.

i miss you,leon chua and pris.miss outing with you guys =)
take care.

whoever you are,i don't know and i don't care.

i love sharon and whether you believe i don't care.

i don't know how you get sharon no. but since you know me,you can just contact me.

stop messaging and disturb her.you are just making yourself a loser by not naming yourself.

indeed i said that you are humji and sharon did sleep together with me.

what you want just come to me alright.if you really think sharon is soft and etc,you are wrong.

please mind your words by saying others well you are ssaying yourself too.

and since when i got a gf.i don't even know i have you (whoever it is) as my gf.

c'mon don't bhb alright.if you get to see my post and unhappy with me just find me for all you want.since you are so clever to find and spy people just go ahead and find me and come towards me.because i'm curious and wanna know who are you.whatever sharon tell you,is all i said to her and ask her to replied back to you.

2007-10-01T11:24:00.000+08:00

Thanks for everyone tag.
To those who tag good stuffs in my tagboard,thou I don’t know who is it but thanks.
Whoever who tag bad stuffs in my tagboard, such a loser.
Dare to tag but don’t dare to even put your name.
and there seem to be many funny name and faces.
Since you so free to come to my blog and tag I believe you are more free to read my post.
After finished blog game,now start tagboard game.cmon can’t you guys just grow up.
Trying to let the world people to know you are big enuff to do such stuffs.
Don’t you feel that you are disgracing yourself here.haha.i ain’t that childish than you.I don’t mind childish together because it show people out there to know how childish you are doing all this.
By the way,is it so fun to quarrel about heights.i never say that I’m very tall but the fact that shortie is shorter than me.
To those people who are unhappy with me,just serve your dua chio bu alright.
don't be so so typical, it really make you sound so like a loser (:
if my sentence structure HORRIBLE. like what i say, don't come visit my blog.
since you felt so disgusted by me, why still come to my blog to make you feel even more disgusted.
I believe you people don’t understand English or don’t even know how to read?haha.
Off it if you realise that those post will make you boil.what’s the point of visiting my blog since I will make you agitated?
like what [: say, DEVIL CHILD. maybe you bunch of kids need a dictionary and a bible to calm your nerves after reading my blog post. hehhehes, perhaps GOD will do something to you. so you'll repent you know(:

2007-09-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

To the dearest pampered kids of on the earth:
aiya, all i can say you'll are the same. i'm talking to the shorter one now. you bloody hell wanna prove to me that you're trying to protect your dearest by texting me. oh wells, first i'm not interested. second, i aint bother what you're going to say. cause it's my life, my blog. aint yours. you're no one here to say anything about me. you wanted everything to stop, then ask yourself first. why even start everything here? hurs, wake up and get a life too? you knew from the start, i will gan you like mad when you started texting me. you can say i change and etc, but really. search your heart, who change and kept lying. hurhurs, you must really wake up your little childish idea my dear(: Now to the, slightly taller one. you to said enough is enough, why still continue posting. wells, i thought my english aint good.Wells, God indeed prove to me that some people's english is worse. HAH! Gracious god, i wonder if they do even know what exctly they're saying. maybe not aye? cause they can even post certain things and actually not know the meaning of it. like, OH MY TIAN! wells, or maybe i think they should really go back schooling life in primary school like teachers teach young kids to know what they're saying. wahhahhaha. pardon me,i'm laughing my ass off currently. urms, guess that's all i've to post for today about certain idiotic people(:

2007-09-27T21:47:00.001+08:00

Thanks for the people who read my post.
i knew that was a long post of mine.
i guess i never waste anytime of anyone especially to the people out there who consistently reading my blog post .
Who’s really interested and know what’s going on here and read I guess I never make you guys feel like lullaby.but to those people who totally got no interest to read,they will just off it but I guess they did not because they are more free and I believe I never waste your time to read.did you see the top right corner?see this x?that’s a close tab,to remind you if you can’t see it just click that and just off it since you read it and feel so lullaby.
I believe I can get better than an A.thanks.oh nice try for you too.I don’t know which part of the above sentence that you do not understand to continue read it since you are interested.thanks for reading man.
Oh don’t mind telling you,to really understand what’s peace in and out this sentence
I guess u really need to check it out what’s the meaning of it. =)
Don't make me laugh my ass off. Cause you're not definitely not reacting like one. Or could i say, you're reacting like a SMALL KID again? Oh, have fun too my dear :D

小妹妹，来妈妈教你做人的道理
stupid kid, grow up.

I didnt ask you to view my blog post, neither did i say it's meant for you.
moreover no name is stated here(:

2007-09-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday night,between your conversation with charlotte ,I actually knew everything about it.well,thanks charlotte, sorry to treat you as the middle person between the two of us.thanks for telling me good stuffs about your good friend but i guess i will never understand what you have meant at all.i believe and i've stated clear enuff and so does she.i hope that yesterday’s post will be the last post of hers but i guess after all these have happened, this game will never end.i don't need any judgment from people and I do admit that I am at fault but at least i admitted and did not deny unlike you?I did not act stubborn and i did not want t quarrel by playing this kinda game but i guess is all about standing on our own rights. remember, if someone wants someone else to actually take a joke and don't bother what you post, so why should you even bother what people post in their own blog and you cant even take a joke.

after this post i know everyone will be waiting for the upcoming post that i'm gonna post.
since you wanna start this blog game,oh well,why not continue it.if you don't want it you shouldn't admit it.if you never put a question there,nobody will answer.if you are not sensitive why should you even bother what people have replied without stating any name there?bear in mind that this is my blog.i welcome friends or even strangers to my blog and read my post because there's nothing to hide.so what if i answer?
isn't this is all you want.your post just to let people know that you did that out of no offense.
c'mon who says i can't take jokes?if you really wanna make me stupid you are actually making you,yourself stupid to let everyone know you are big enuff to do all this but lucky you did not.
your actions prove that you have a deprived childhood or maybe is not you,what about your friends?as you said by doing all those is fun and so you come along so it makes no different.thanks for your spelling.
if you don't feel the way right on my blog,why still admit?first and foremost,i dint spell out your BIG name on my blog. and what exactly makes you think that i'm actually referring to you uh? HOHO =)

as you said is just only hands over shoulder what exactly and did I say anything much ?it can be seen that both of you are close and I’m just merely stating the fact.
by saying both of you close is there any problem?why do you even react so big by what I have posted?
haha.telling jiayu,i guess i don't have too.she have eyes to read and she can choose not to even come to my blog and see what i've posted.oh c'mon,is just a post only.not a big deal.my dear jiayu,i didn't wanna mention about your name here but i guess your girlfriend wanna talk about you and pull you into this matter.my dear babe,is a matter between you and i.do you really scare and got no confidence towards your girlfriend that she not gonna trust you.haha.it also can be seen how much you love and scare to lose her to even mention about her.i got nothing much to talk about how close your relationship between you and your friend or even what kinda relationship are you in together with jiayu.you can have my blessing and thanks but i guess i don't need you to tell or even teach me what to do.she got her own eyes and heart to see and to actually feel for herself.just to let you know that i did not even mean anything in that sentence alright.you choose to admit and read it on your own account .nobody force you to read if you are unhappy. =) and don't pretend that you know our story. =)
to even blog and letting the whole world people to know you are so bored that's why you following me.maybe to you its just a plain form of entertainment?haha.to let the people out there to know how childish you are?my dear babe,to really think that you are simple but i guess im wrong.to really believe what you said?do you even believe me?haha.
and you didn't wanna say that?i did not do anything how am i suppose to made you.
well,as i said you can take my blessing because nobody will step into a smooth relationship.do stay happy with her and i believe she will too.do you really know how i treat her?i guess the things you know is also what she tell you.you never even use your eyes to see so please don't make any judgments here. when you don't even know what's going on.how you’re going to treat her in future i don't care as i said i don't even bother how people is going on in their relationship.
i will keep in mind that by saying i loveyou doesn't prove how much you love a person.
actions prove how much you love a person so what?love come and go my dear.
remember what you have now is not forever and nothing is forever.

anyway,you choose to dislike me and i did not even make you to like me in the first place.
dislike me more than you ever did.oh well,but i don’t dislike you more than I ever did.i’m clear that what im talking and posting my dear.as you said we not gonna be friends or enemy.how can I believe your words?are you very sure and confirm by what you said when you are burning mad. i mean what I said and you can take my words.you can choose not to believe me.jiayu can be more clear than anyone.whatever charlotte tell you is all that I’ve said.i do have a true heart and answer unlike some people who just give answer blindly and still given promise.you don’t have to let the whole world to trust you but I guess even you are out there working or talking to people who actually know whats going on and they experience before do you think they will still trust and believe you?haha.yes,you don’t need the whole world to trust and believe you and keep this into your mind that your close people around you not everyone trust you too.do you really think you have the right,deserve and confidence to take the consequences that what you have done and said?my dear babe,if you really know how to think you will not misunderstood what I’m trying to imply here.but if you don’t understand and gonna mistaken it than I’m sorry guess no point posting so much to tell each other.you are the one who makes misunderstanding and think it wrongly for what I’ve posted.

you've your whosoever of GOOD friends, i have mine too. your friends can happily say about me, why can't my friends say about you too? vice versa. LOOKING LIKE A CHIO BU IS GOOD, BUT ACTING LIKE ONE DUA CHIO BU MAKES MY HAIR STAND(quoted by pris) c’mon ie more chio nehxzx, hehex. just wake up some sense of yours, i can't lock up my post cause i don't feel that i've anything to hide. maybe you do have, that's why you wanna lock up your post?what a loser too. =) 90% for friends 10% for public worxz. HOHO, don't make me laugh off my pants.
On a lighter note, i'm meeting my babe tomorrow. awww, can't you feel the LOVE!<3

2007-09-25T19:18:00.000+08:00

today,
woke up around 10am?
prepared myself and went to work together with my parents.
slacking around and never do much but im gaining weight!
as long as im with my parents they will just treat me like their piggy!
kinda fun and tired.never really learn much and the people out there look at me weird weird.
12plus had my breakfast cum lunch,3plus had my lunch cum dinner.
eat non stop and daddy still can say he's still hungry!god!
messaging my dear babe since morning.thanks my dear.i'm fine.don't worry.
reach home around 6plus going 7pm.

my dear was online and i chat with her.she make me laugh when she's boil.
she aint bad but you seems to mess her life.haha.
she's complaining alot to me.haha.
relax my dear. =)

i don't care whether by doing all those was FUN.
oh well,perhaps, you do have deprieved childhood.
kinda sacastic and childish too.

no offense! =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Now that it's all said and done,

I can't believe you were the one

To build me up and tear me down,

Like an old abandoned house.

What you said when you left

Just left me cold and out of breath.

I fell too far, was in way too deep.

Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.

I guess it's really over.

2007-09-24T18:43:00.000+08:00

just reach home not long.
kinda study together with pris at starbuck.
around 4plus leave there and went for a smoke saw charmaine and she smoke too.
kinda suprise that she smoke.accompany babe went to buy muffin for her friend and we left there around 5plus.took train back to amk and i went to toilet n view some shops.
the clothes not bad and when i look inside the shop i saw fish girlfriend.
hmm,seriously speaking the clothes not bad.have time will go down and take alook.

went to toilet and i saw that bung really look like a guy and i was wondering how come a guy went to a girl toilet.well,she really look like guy.kinda shock and well,is her friend.they walk in front of me well we walk the same direction and they are close.hand over the shoulder.
walking home chatting with babe.damn funny.you never fail to make me laugh and really cannot take it.you are damn adorable.
haven't been eating the whole day and i guess i'm not eating. =)

i don't feel anything at all even when i look at you.

i don't even care whether how you view me.

even thou i feel abhor before but it seems like i've get rid it out of my heart.

happily staying with her.my blessing.

2007-09-24T11:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
had dinner with my parents.
after dinner went down to amk central to buy mooncake.
fiona is growing fat! =\ going diet soon. =)
reach home around 9pm.chattin on the phone with babe well she's outside with that piggy.
chat awhile after that call my dear sharon and we chatted very long.
sorry my dear,that i never return back call to you.
watch tv from 11pm-1am.

chatted on the phone with you*
i tired to hold my temper and treating you nice.
but i realise you always change my mood and turn it sulky.damn sucks!
yes,i've been crying because my mentally unstable but even if i'm not i realise i aint the person that can walk the whole life with you.my feeling never be strong and will never be with you.
is not because of you that's why i cried.we've already break our communcation.
sleep around 2plus going 3am

sleeping with tears.. =)

woke up not long.
going to prepare soon and go out to settle daddy things and meet babe at city hall.
i'm tired and headache. =^
wanted to go swimming today with gongong but she needa work. -.-

is all because of you.what a slut.

finally i understand what's fugly.

suite you. =)

2007-09-23T18:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday night cried suddenly.
feeling so miserable and unstable.
i'm sorry that i've attitude you but at the same time im stating the fact.
you don't have to say or do anything because is not your fault too.

whole body feel not energy and kinda pain.
working today but i never go for work.
since i wanna quit so before they set me i just quit the job.
woke up around 11plus going 12.
wanted to meet duncan but never,went down to east coast to fixed the brake.
nearly fall down but i never.haha. =\ try the brake,it was ok.
reach house downstair around 4pm.
meet up duncan slacking around at carpark playing roller blade.keep disturbing me and we nearly fall together.
chatting with babe for the whole afternoon.she damn funny.
saying that bitch look so typical ahlian.haha.
is not easy my dear,but if you really can i congrats to you. =)

babe,

how i wish i can but i can't

i wanna leave here just you and me.

i believe we leave here happily with no worries.

2007-09-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

today,
woke up around 9plus prepared going to take bus to work.
mummy suddenly ask me to accompany her to eat breakfast so i accompany her and i took cab to work.so good of me. =))))))))))))))
reach work place quite early.feel like sleeping when im in the changing room.the weather is sooo hottttttt today!drag my time,smoking away.
i'm not ok and my mood sucks alright.im damn down this morning but after work i was fine.
messaging my dear babe since morning until i went for work and after i finish work,
funny her.damn cute.
after work meet up my parents have dinner together.
stupid daddy gimmi so much rice la.i'm not a pig daddy!
you are making me fat again. =^
after dinner went home take roller blade,went down to bishan park to play and guess what.
i fall down twice and my left knee got blue black now!hand and butt very pain.
i still can laugh out loud when i fall.haha.
daddy gonna bring to the shop and fix the break for me.
i gonna learn with no brake one day and learn how to use Tbrake.
reach home around 8plus going 9pm.
amk hub there got fireworks to watch but nothing much and i don't find it nice too.

i decided to quit my job!
all thanks to you my dear siti,giving me 'long' hours for work.
gonna help out daddy to work?maybe gonna find other job and work.

i don't know why but i know you love me alot suddenly.
i'm sorry but i don't wish too.take care babe.

you make me realise you are damn sucks.

and i don't stand any place in your heart anymore.

are you gonna be the one

whom i going with for life. =?

2007-09-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

today,
attend school and guess what.
only 6people attend to school today.
leave the class around 9plus.went out smoke together with eugene.
slack around went to change clothe and went out with charlotte to have breakfast plus lunch.
damn it full and growing fat.cannot take it.
after that,head down to east coast to take alook roller blade.
call daddy up and tell him the price and he say he's coming down together with mummy and brother.he bought roller blade for both of us. =))))))))))))))))))))))))))
hehe,but i gna die with it.so long never play already and i bought it without break. =\
he want me to learn and not using any break. =^
gonna learn maybe next week.haha.
if really cannot i gonna buy it myself and fix it.
went to have dinner at hongkong cafe.
reach home around 8plus and went house downstair accompany charlotte awhile.
you are so tired and you are so free.take care when you having trging tomorrow and enjoy your bbq with ur badminton friends. +)

i wanted but i never.
i couldn't and i can't.i'm sorry.
but i don't even have that feel and i don't feel it at all.

i'm working tomorrow. =\
don't feel like working suddenly but i gonna work to earn money.

my whole mind is all about you.

i loveyou.take care my dear.

not gonna see you for long.

gonna missyou badly. <3

bring me along and leave here.

2007-09-20T18:09:00.000+08:00

today,
reach school around 3plus and they tell me teacher got meeting.
arghs.make me travel here and there and make me sweat.
make me rush here and there.took bus back home and meet up duncan.
hopefully she can work at vivo.hehe.
i wanna change my job!

what a bitch man.your face already very bitch.stop acting because your looks disgusting alright.wanna act like you are hot and good with everything.oh please.
everyone is much more better than you.

i'm sorry babe,i don't wish to hide from you but i don't wanna treat you unfair.

i hope you will find someone else who can walk and spent the whole life with you.

i know i'm not the one.i don't wish to hurt you deeply but i know i hurt you already.

since we never really start,i don't wish to continue and make things more complicated.

no point moving on when you another partner is not moving on together wit you.

i still loveyou my dear.huggs. <3

please take care of yourself.i know you not feeling well.

if you really wanna kill me just come ahead.
i'm always here waiting for you.wanna say others please say yourself and look into the mirror.
you ain't perfect at all.love is always hurt alright.but you did it more than i do.
you don't even have the right to even say me when at the same time you are saying yourself.
your age is older than me but i guess your brain is smaller than me.
even thou you are my friend and the very close one but that was the past because you have disgrace yourself.i'm sorry to say it this way but i know you will not be the one who coming to see what i've post.
no name stated. =) wanna be the one just go ahead.

i maybe evil to others now since everyone wanna mess with me than go ahead.

since you guys want it this way i'm just returning back to you guys.

fiona sucks alright.because everyone of you just fuck me up.

i missyou.always right here just for you.

thanks for everything that you have done for me.

never regret having you in my life.

2007-09-19T18:30:00.001+08:00

attend to school today.
late again.haha.
reach school playing around. =x
went to smoke together with hock ann.
stupid him.keep ask me to go home but i never.
he went home and i went back to class alone and suddenly mrs quek ask if im alright anot.
i tell her said ya,im fine.why?she replied:"i heard that you going to quit school?"
i said ya,because from the start till now i learn nothing.she want me to study now but i guess is hard for me because i don't know where to start at all. =\
thanks my dear.funny and cute you always stay.
to some people,they are very happy that i gonna quit school but now im not gonna quit so i guess i've made disappointment to you guys.im going to stay.
stop giving that kinda fucking face when you guys are in the wrong.whatever it is.
we don't owe you guys anything so since you guys don't dare to even take any consequences,in the first place shouldn't even talk so much and please wanna act please do well your role.it sucks when you actually mess it up you know.haha.whatever alright.i don't give a fuck.
please don't even think that i'm lonely without you guys or even think i need you guys to even live in that class.im who i am who lead my life myself.thank god that i don't have to be with you guys and mess up everything together.

hey tjy,

don't ever feel awkward.no point blaming or apologise to me too.

it will not make any changes am i right.

so just let it be.im still here for you if you need me.

take care.have time meet up when you are free. =)

i'm wrong i know.

i shouldn't have tell you how i felt towards you.

that was the past and i thought i could go with you now but i can't.

the feeling isn't right at all and when you tell me saying that when mag hugg me you actually jealous.i was suprise that you said that.i need you my dear,i don't wish you to leave but is your life.i can't be the one who actually walk together with you because the need is not the need that i want from you.is not the love at all.im sorry babe.but i still loveyou alright.i know how you feel.i also never expected you will put your feeling so deep into it.

i don't wish things to turn out this way,i thought things will be alright when i accept you.

i was wrong and damn wrong.i'm sorry babe.

i'm still here always miss and loveyou alright.huggs. <3

2007-09-18T19:52:00.000+08:00

was late for lesson but also never mind since nothing to do in class.
slacking around and chat wit hoe gern.he sit beside me and took my phone to play game until low batt but i took his charger to charge my phone.thanks. =)
went to audi together with him,he damn idiot but he's nice at time.
slack around there went for the next lesson.he damn noisy.bth.
before school ends we left the class and went to eat.very full after eating the noodles up.
daddy fetch me up.wanted to go whitesand but he say don't need already.

It's funny how you think you really know yourself

Like you would never lose yourself to someone else

And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me

Silly silly me

I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

If you had only told me how you really felt
I could have put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinkin'

I was where I was supposed to be
Silly silly me
But there was something 'bout you that I couldn't resist
Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for it
I know you're no good for me
And that's the way it is
And I want it to be over
I so want it to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore
I tell myself
Get over you
It's over right
Right thing to do
And just when I thought I was done
You pull me in for another run
I can't take this I won't take this
I can't do this
I Won't do it
Even if I know in the end somehow it always comes back to you

i no longer need you in your life,so does you.

well,being your friend?i guess you don't need me as your friend too.

wanna be close or even good friend i guess i don't deserve it is because even you choose to be you never treat me like one.do your part first if you want it.

i don't hate you and i will never hate you for what you said and done.

i'm still here for you,tjy. =)

hey babe,you're hot.
never expected things will turn out this way but is a good start.
it might be ridiculous to you guys but we are serious this time.
ilove and missyou always my dear.
i hope things go smooth for us and we last.

im leaving the school and not going back anymore. =)
this week will be the last week for me staying in that school.
thanks my dear,that you have done for me and said to me,everything.
i will never forget you and you always stay in my heart.happy knowing you and ones like you before even now but i still move on.will missyou even thou we not gonna see each other after holiday ends.
i don't know why you gimmi that kinda weird face but i know what you are thinking

2007-09-18T10:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
attend to school.leave school quite early.
but reach home quite late.i don't know why i took so long to reach home.
watch tv,bathe then call babe at the same time watching tv.
after watching tv,do house work. =\
watch tv again. =?
wanted to sleep at 10pm.surprising?so early.
but end up i can't so i sleep around 1230am if im not wrong.

today,
woke up around 10am.
nobody at home,my parents slept quite late yesterday but woke up early than me!
im tired but i can't get to sleep.
im late for school =! going next lesson later.going to prepare soon. =^

what a bitch.

never expected that you will dislike her too.haha.

check it out what will happen then.

but,who will even give a fuck so just fuck it off.

2007-09-17T11:11:00.001+08:00

just woke up not long.headache. =\
wonder should i attend school not. =x
if not i going still needa go out to help babe to buy things.

is your choice alright and i seriously never get affected by what you said to me alright.
don't ask me what i want because i don't see there's any point to even tell you my answer.
telling you,my answer then after that change your answer.whats the point?
you got no true heart and you will not have a true answer.i'm not gonna wait for your answer.
after so long you made me realise you are actually the same as another two idiots!
it wasn't too late after all.haha.
by then i guess you will have other girls so just go ahead alright.
i don't give a fuck about it at all. .)
anyway,do well your part before saying others because i will not hurt her.
ilove her more than anyone so even if i hurt her you will see who will protect who then.haha.
im confidence and sure that im better than you my dear.
still friends but no longer that close.
i don't trust anyone?hmm.

fighting over a girl.haha.

babe,iloveyou for who you are and you the perfect one.

2007-09-16T17:34:00.000+08:00

today,
lazy to wake up.
wanna sleep more but still wake up prepared myself to get out for work!
since is only 5 1/2 hours of work.well,is not i wanna work less but alot of people coming for attachment so they don't need so much people to work.

hey,babe i missyou so much.haha
went home after work.
i realise and lucky man.not together with you not history gonna repeat.
well,i never really get bother by what you said to me,everything.
let it go and stop your shit out of here.

i loved you endlessly,when you weren't there for me.
so now it's time to leave and make it alone.
i know that i can't take no more it ain't no lie.
don't wanna be a fool for you.just another player in your game for two.
don't really wanna make it tough,i just wanna tell you that i had enough.

i'm signin' off

2007-09-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

i just read someone blog.i can actually understand and even feel it.
my dear babe,don't get bother it alright.remember what i said to you.
you always love by me alright.huggs. <3

today,
went to work and finish work early and return back home.
prepare get out of the house and had dinner with my parents together with my brother.
had a great dinner. =))))))))))))))

i realise all along you show no respect on yourself and others well you are messaging.
scolding so much that you want and don't even know who you actually scolding i guess.
why not scold it out well you are messaging and let her hear?don't give a damn what you've type all the vulgarities too.aint my business because im not having the problem.
whatever it is,leaving your life is a great thing for you.
whatever it is all the best to you and her since you want it and is your wish.
i don't see there's any point to even give a damn about it when im not in the fault now.
so whatever happens im not gonna know and understand because i don't deserve the bloody attitude that you actually gimmi.why should i care when you actually called me not to even give a fuck to bother about it.haha.
i've seen thru everything for what you've done.

you give love a bad name.

it sucks,you know!

no name stated so if you wanna be the one than let it be. .)

im sorry to you,my dear to actually tell you this way to let it go but im serious.

i don't know what are you thinking even thou you say i understand you.
i actually feel weird when you tell me saying that you gonna consider.haha.

i wanna leave singapore and i believe you can bring me.
i missyou but.. you know.answer is all the same. .)

if you love me then thank you

if you hate me then fuck you

2007-09-14T20:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
slept quite late.
i cried until i got swollen eyes.

today,
attend school.
nothing much.sit down there alone and i don't know why i keep coughing.
test today!that's great that i actually don't even know how to do and thanks my dear,you again to let me to copy.haha.he's kind.i love him alot. =))))))
after school,wanted to meet charlotte but guess she's still not awake so i actually went down to orq to find sharon and slack around there.ate cesar salad!very full and i never finish.
that bloody tina seems to be the same.dislike her man.
thanks babe.iloveyou so much.
chatted with my dear mag and telling her the truth.haha.damn funny.you are slow my dear.
wait for sharon to finish work and we went down to rc to view the new opening coffeeclub.
don't really like it. =? went down to suntec to have lunch plus dinner.very full. =^
meet up charlotte at marina square and took back my phone.send sharon off and puff is all we do.waiting for bus back home.im getting damn tired.sleep early tonight.
not gonna bother me and not gonna bother anyone and anything anymore.
working tomorrow. =( im getting lazy.fuck man

im going crazy over you

i missyou.thanks for everything.loves <3

2007-09-13T20:33:00.001+08:00

today,
wanted but never attend to school and still considering whether should i quit.
daddy fetch me and mummy out for lunch.heavy lunch and after that meal make me feel very weak.i feel like vomit and i feel like fainting but of course i never.
that meal is my breakfast lunch plus dinner,really make me feel damn sick.
i have been tearing while im helping my dad.they didn't know about it.
on my way home,i feel like tearing again.just fuck man.what fuck i've done.
i realise she really look alike ade.walking the same path as sharon.
but sharon is moving on already i guess.
telling things different and different timing and date.
wow,isnt it great that im a silly who always trust her and even believe at the same time putting hope.want me to flirt being selfish who don't bother about how people feel,yes is hard for me because too many things happen and make me aint the past of me.
the past of me who really don't even give a damn about anyone out there or even how they feel for me and everything,is totally numb.
why the fuck am i the one who bother about everything.
what's true love to you telling me different thing always is all you know.
playing with me.you say you don't.make it clear what's playing with me.there's alot of meaning.telling lies again and again.fuck it off man.true friends or even good friend.now im even your friend you have been lying to me.im the one who auto all along.saying that you won't be moving on and you are moving on real fast as i do.telling me can't let go all kinda lies.sweet and bad stuffs all in the messages.now i know why she say you are the one that really know how to sweet talk.telling me you are being yourself same time being a selfish who knows how to think about yourself and friends.maybe that girl is better than me.oh whatever.wanna move on than go ahead.i aint like you who love to lie telling and giving fake answer and hope.
yes waiting is all i do and what i know.cause it come out true from my heart and i mean it.
fucking tears never stop dropping.i really damn it fuck up with it.
is it true that you want me you just come to me and you don't want me you just leave and just find the others.am i just a hotel to you.

2007-09-13T12:54:00.001+08:00

went out to have breakfast,lunch plus dinner with my aunt at jack's place around evening.
really had a heavy dinner.is not a great dinner at all.haha
we chatted alot and i told her say im not gonna study and i wanna quit.
i told alot of people and everyone is like asking what am i gonna do after i quit.
if i know where im heading and i know what im going to study then i quit.
yes,my mind already set that i wanna quit school.alot of people wash brain me but,i really feel that im damn wasting time.i needa rest and im damn confuse!
reach home around 8plus?helped my dad to do his work.
online n helped sharon to do somethings then watch tv.
on the phone with my dear sharon for one hour,we never stop laughing and her that meimei damn cute and funny.
fiona is fat and she's getting fat! =\

yesterday night sleep around 3plus going 4am!
wake up around 11plus.mummy woke me up.
if not im still dreaming and i nearly cried and i feel like crying after i woke up.
i missyou alot. =^ =\ =( =% even in that dream i really don't understand.
it goes the same as reality.
chatted with mag and nicol yesterday night and he suggest me to finish this year.
even if i finish this year i can't get any cert too.studying more than half a year im learning nothing.yes,nobody love to study.everyone is forcing themselves to study.i totally got no interest and im not making any effort and at the same time people around me giving me answer to pass my exams i ain't happy because im not the one who know how to do but the others and i really wanna study hard but i can't get it thru my mind and i bloody don't even understand what the hell is going.she teach me everything still i don't understand.maybe im slow and bet that teacher totally got no patience to even teach.that's the impression that she gimmi and make me no longer talk to her or even learn anything.even they gimmi answer i copy blindly i don't even know what the hell is that.
some people ask me not to study and just quit and just work with them and give myself a break.
well,i needa break even thou im quit i will not go work as a full timer. =)))))
some people ask me to quit and go for the course that i really want.it really make me consider alot.
i told sharon about it,i know she's unhappy because she want me to study and she actually wanted to help me but damn it.i really don't understand and if i fail and i go up to next year i still needa repeat everything this year.should i or should i not attend school?im late already.i guess warning letter is coming to my house soon.yungzhi already got it.i guess the next one is me!
should i go down orq?haha.i know you miss me. =d i never bother to think much about relationship soooooooooo please stop qus me and even want answer from me,thanks people out there who have been qus and want answer from me. =s

i know who i really want,at the same time i guess is gone.

result seems to be there and even thou im kinda awake still,holding on.

love is a foolish things by doing all this for your love one?haha.

but everyone is doing the same thing isnt it true.that's why love is blind and we are more blind?

2007-09-12T10:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
went down to orq.all coffeeclub ppl see me like damn shock.
haha.i say hi to tina,she gimmi a weird face like as if we never see each other before.
don't bother to give a damn.sooooo longggggg never see mag already.
first thing she see me she hugg me.i missyou my dear.haha.
she str8 pull me out and smoke and we chatted.
she was like asking you are mine right.i was like =?
i str8 tell her i not sure if you are serious when you ask me for stead that time.
it was very long ago when i went down to rc to find her.is so obvious that she can't put down doreen la please.she's acting a flirt now but she said that she don't even know how too.action shows everything so clearly mag.haha.sharon came out and i realise she pierce her tongue.that mag didn't know until i ask sharon.she chase sharon and don't allow her to go.laugh like crazy.
all orq people know that im sharon gf.they are playing mad.i guess this is why they gimmi a weird face and reaction.tina said i grow slim while before i reach i told sharon before that im fat.haha.tina asked sharon whether im fat or slim and sharon say fat. =x
after tina saw me she asked sharon said that i tot you say fiona grow fat.haha.
sharon said im just teasing you.accompany sharon to marina square have lunch,went to suntec walk around then chinatown.she bought a pair of ear ring for her godmother then we went to have dessert.yummy. =))))))))*
after dessert went home.chatted alot with her today and really had fun today.
thanks sharon,going out with you really got no stress.glad to heard that from you too.
at night,msg mag and disturb her.i ask her if she's jealous and she say yes because sharon never run out of girls falling for her.i ask if she got feeling for me she never really answer my qus but sharon say i think mag like you.haha.kinda stupid.but i know mag don't like me.she just wanna compare with sharon and get sharon girl!mag rushing to find a gf and is hard to find a gf that will put you first before your friends.she feel lonely and she's kinda flirting while she say she's not.whatever.haha.

today,
never attend to school.hehe =x
im headache now.i don't know why.but i can't get back to sleep.
im tired and keep yawning.damn irritating. =\
going to have breakfast,lunch and dinner around 4plus together with aunt.
think she's busy.early morning receive sharon messages.damn funny.
those coffeeclub people there keep disturb her.my dear sharon please take care urself.
sick and now still got fever.take more care ok.iloveyou.muacks.
sharon meimei really damn funny and cute.she really drive us crazy and cheer our day up.
my new pl gf,sharon.stead for half a year.haha.

who understand me. =? nobody. =^

2007-09-11T11:41:00.000+08:00

have been away.
isnt it great for me and some people out there =?
everyday,was thinking and don't know what the hell im fear of.
my heart damn hurt whenever i think of it.
if i can stay in other country i will never be back here again.
yes,i may wanna avoid things happening here because i can't accpet the fact.
even how much talking we do it seems useless.time prove everything?haha.
god can't make decision for us at times,problems lies on you and it depends on you.
whatever.im sick of tired by doing the talking always.
misunderstanding always come towards me.it so obvious that they don't need me.
i had enuff too.devil me gonna be out soon =))
what's the point of being a good person at times?when they are the one who making the mistake and pushing the blame.haha.wtf.
make this clear to everyone that if you guys wanna talk to me,prepare that i will shoot it back because i have my own view too and if you guys can't bloody accept it than don't talk to me because from the start im just stating the fact.want me to shut up than rather don't come and talk to me.isnt it meaningless talking to someone and that bloody person just don't give a damn about you and telling you saying that she don't care about everything anymore.fuck man.this is what you guys show me.im just returning back.i done nothing wrong so i guess i don't need you guys anymore.
i aint wrong at all. =)
at the same time it prove that you guys don't understand me at all.
need me just come to me and telling me so much,after everything is still me,the one doing everything and settle everything.what's the point?end up,the return is all this.thanks man.
i will always remember,you guys are totally selfish.want chances from someone when you guys need it?at the same time you guys don't wanna give the others a chance.so petty of you guys and im so pity for you guys.
thanks for the one that suggestion and stupid idiot of you guys doing somethings that actually you guys are the one taking the consquences at the same time never bother to think so far.
isnt it great that everything happen and it turn out so nice.

yesterday,
attend to school.walking alone isnt it a bad thing huh.
schoolmates but not forever friends.even thou don't have them,life have to goes on.
don't have them i still have other people to chat,doesn't mean that the whole world people is dead.teacher ask me,why i sit alone but never join them?there's nothing to talk so why should i even bother to sit with them.being alone at times isnt bad too. =))))))))))))))))
never bother to tell her much to create more problems out and more misunderstanding.
im clear for what i have said.unlike some of them out there.action shows everything.isnt it clear that what you guys have said and done is totally different.don't bullshit in front of me anymore.
i aint the past of me. turning bad to worse and worst. =?
things happen will always change a person.how long am i gonna change?
never will i be the good one. =]]]]] get this clear everyone.

chatting on the phone with sharon and left the school before school ends.
on my way,happy chatting with her going to meet leon and pris up.char came along.all smokers.kinda shock that she tell me saying that mz also smoke.g0sh.surprising.she went off with mz for trging.
eat double cheeseburger and it settle my 3meal a day. =x
chat with leon alot man.she damn pissed with herself.damn funny.
never expected you will have a idiot ex gf.lucky im not her friend if not i gonna walk in a miserable life together with her.im not saying that she's dumb or mean to say her but simple action she don't even do it.so it so obvious that she choose this way than let it be.
at times,i really wonder whats the point of getting back?she will never awake and is so obvious.
left alone around 6plus going 7pm?change bus back home.
reach home,do housework and watch tv then bathe and rest.

today,
wanted to attend school but never.
daddy accompany mummy go hospital so im alone at home.
told them saying that im attending school. =\
going to find my dear sharon later.i miss and loveyou.muacks.
she's getting sick and i realise im getting sick too.
i don't know why im so tired this few days.every night sleep quite late.
starting work soon and im gonna be dead. =^ irritating.
im sorry nicholas.is not i don't believe you and i don't see there's any point that i gonna trust you by what you are saying to me and everything.it had been so long and still,why do you even bother to wait.i thought you already give up on me and no longer telling me all that.
im clear that we can only be friends.thanks for telling me everything and i can't get it right thru my mind because im still a crk.

i had enuff of everything but still,im right here waiting.
i mean it i do it,my answer to you is a cfm answer.
making disappointment to me again and again never make me fall.
because,i always stand up again and again to face this test.
i can take it doesn't mean im strong doesnt mean im independent.
nobody is independent at all is because there will always be someone to be there for you.
even there's no one i blif there's god helping.
things isnt going right,i know.who is the one who want it this way?
nobody is clear by what they are doing at times,mistake always repeat.
is that what we want?answer and picture is so clear.
simple answer,if people can avoid they choose to run away and let everything down and everyone down because they choose not to even settle it themselves.no matter what,there's one day the matter have to be solve.
maybe to some people,if i don't settle the things people might forget it and give me a chance?
chances given so much when they are still survive and what if they are gone?want chances again?get it from?

regret always stay

im getting myself awake.

2007-09-03T18:40:00.001+08:00

yesterday night,
accompany duncan and help her to do things.
hope your wife will like it.haha.
reach home around 11plus.watch tv until 1am.
look at daddy,he standing near the windows gazing at the stars.
kinda worry,but still there's nothing much we can do.

today attend to school.
attend class and take test but never finish.
after that,attend thy lesson take thy test.
went back to class to take the test again,finally i get her to sign.
she never sign means i can't pass the test.
after school str8 go home.going to help mummy to do housework.
alot of clothes to wash. =\

everyone have different kinda view.
nobody is right or wrong by saying.
after all,is about debate. :)))))))))))

gonna be away for a few days..

don't bother to care and concern..

2007-09-03T00:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
was waiting for ekin to called me and meet her but she did not contact me at all.
went to my room,playing game until i sleep. =\
wake up around 6plus going 7pm.went to changi village to eat,walk around.
went down to downtown east to find my brother,mummy bought one jeans.
went back to changi village,sit there drink and eat again.growing fat =^
walk around the park,thinking lots.
mummy afternoon,saying that daddy got illness.
never bother much because she cant say much,but i ask her if it can be cure but she say no.
is kinda serious so at that point of time i was thinking,he got cancer.
his report haven't come out but i read the paper,he actually got liver disease.
waited for my brother and we went home together.reach home around 2am.
sleep around 4am.playing game till i sleep.

today,
wake up,around 11plus if im not wrong.
busy doing housework,bathe around 2plus.
went grandma house to have lunch,stay there till 4plus.
accompany mummy buy 4d at amk central then went to bank.
going to meet duncan..

walking alone.. :)

2007-09-01T12:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
wake up around 6plus,prepare get out of the house take bus to school.
reach school around 8plus.surprising anne came.
i guess mrs quek surprise that i went to school too.haha.
the way she look at me.weird =? guess she never expected that i will be attend.
happy teacher's day to you,mrs quek.
stupid nicol damn disturbing.he disturb anne that time damn funny.
safiyee mummy cook mee fen and he bring it to school,they still bought snacks,drinks and black forest cake for teacher.so sweet of them.
they took photos of the cake and take a short video.
well,i never eat much.he ask if i wanna eat anot,but i cant eat and i don't feel like eating.
i just drink water,after that teacher want us to eat the cake and stupid nicol said"cher,they want you to serve them." she really serve the cake to anne but i take myself.haha.damn paiseh can.
all thanks to nicol.i disturb him,he disturb other malay guy because of the cherry.
mrs quek suddenly chat with me.at times,really find that she's nice.
maybe after what have been happen,she realise at times she's at fault too.
hock ann and eugene came around 9plus-10?so nice of her,serve them food.
that idiot damn bored i guess,he play with the cake and he took the cream up and put it on the tissue paper and keep saying he gonna use the cream and disturb me.
the school finish at 10am.i get out of the class and they chase me with the cream.but,they never do anything. :))))))))))))))))))))))
tot that class gonna be damn b0red but got hock ann and him is noisy enuff.
after school str8 take bus back to amk hub.thinking if wanna go back to secondary school but never.do miss mrs seah and mr ong but kinda bored.going down alone. =\
hopefully,they are doing fine. =)
bought a shirt at bus stop shop.
went down to polyclinic to find mummy and accompany her.after change her dressing went to have lunch together.after lunch,daddy send us back home.
im b0red =\ parents ask if i wanna go down office,so i went.
help out daddy,at the same time learn new things there.reach home around evening.
the house is damn mess,thanks to my brother.everyone is angry with him.
went out awhile reach home around 8plus.mummy mopping the floor and nobody helping her.
so i helped her,she cant do much and cant touch water but she still doing it.lucky she give birth to a girl if she gonna depend on my brother i guess she gonna be damn dead.
after mopping,wash clothes,watch tv,hang up clothes then bathe.
stay inside my room keep playing game until i very tired.sleep quite early yesterday.

today,wake up around 10plus.
accompany mummy had breakfast at mac.
after eating,accompany her buy 4D str8 come back home.
wash clothes,hang up clothes.going to prepare soon,going out awhile.
take care everyone. :)))))))))))

2007-08-30T20:05:00.000+08:00

today,
wake up around 12pm.prepare myself get out of the house around 1plus.
took bus to school,reach around 3plus.took exams.
thanks nicol.haha.thanks for everything,all along helping me.
he's action damn funny and cute at times.
he's a nice guy after all,helping everyone by giving answer.
so not surprise that he help me thou im the only girl.haha.
after school,str8 back home.reach home had dinner.
sweep the floor,washing clothes later.
tomorrow is teacher's day.going to attend to school.
after school coming back home,gonna be a boring day tomorrow.
take care everyone. :)))))))))))))))))))))))

2007-08-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
wake up,prepare accompany mummy go hospital.
she go operation her thumb.daddy fetch us.
after her operation went to chinatown.
eat curry chicken noodles. =x
after eating went daddy office help him out then went down to amk hub to deposit cheque.
thinking of taking new handphone.went to m1 shop buy a sony ericsson w580i.
i pay half of it,reach home str8 meet up duncan and she took my phone play until my phone auto shut off itself due to low batt.she keep playing the sims2.well,i don't find it nice.kinda bored.
reach home around 11pm?online around 11plus going 1am than offline.
sleep around 3.30am.

today,
wake up at 7.15am before fish call me.
anw,thanks fish.wake up prepare,get out of my house take bus to school.
im the first girl who reach class.do my work until 10plus?have my break but never eat.
after break went back to class slack.wendi was like telling me nicol miss me.
well,even if he ask where am i,whenever we see each other he don't bother to talk to me.
what's the point of asking?weird. =^
finish lesson,get out of the school take bus to bedok.
went to mac change clothes and get double cheeseburger to eat. :))))))* yummy!
because jerome last min tell me say he went home and change so i take my time.never expected he took cab down to outram.sorry to let you wait.hehe. =x
after eating,went to buy 18 strawberrys milk lollipops for my dear felicia.
went down to vivo together with him.meet felicia up outside marche.both of them went there to interview.but jason say is full.he let both of them fill in form first.hopefully,both of them can work.hehe.
after that,give felicia one strawberry milk lollipop.she's happy eating but guess her heart is not happy due to some problems.well,don't bother to care much.is your life my dear.what i wanna said is very clear.your answer is there.
went to everlast and i bought one shirt.today,i got my pay,but i can't anyhow spent. =\
accompany jerome to ps.he eat and im playing game.that felicia is too sad until she damn bored and keep disturb me after that she went off to find her bf.
after jerome eat finish we take train back home but he send me home because he's damn bored.chat alot.haha.
reach home,thinking of doing house work but my brother gonna do it.at night i gonna wash clothes.
anw,thanks nicol for reminding.haha. :)))))))))))

take care everyone.

it seems that you are gone

2007-08-27T15:54:00.000+08:00

never attend to school again.
wanted to attend but never.share breakfast with mummy,after eating stomach pain. =\
chat with mummy,she tell me about her childhood.so funny.
our parents childhood is more fun than ours.
she wanted to gimmi cab fees because she want me to attend school.haha.but i never take from her.i realise she gimmi alot.always say i very lazy to attend to school and also know i dnwna study alr.call me t study prevert.damn sian.
went to c doctor at house downstair together with duncan.she accompany me.pass her cig.
take two day mc.haha.tomorrow,going accompany mummy to hosptial.she going operation.
the doctor ask me why i take two day mc.she also know i got smoke.haha.
she ask me not to smoke.called ernie and heard that teacher today never attend school. =?
im bored!don't feel like continue this studies.what am i suppose to do after that?
life is so bored.mummy want me to work sales and train myself.
at night,gonna meet up duncan.

2007-08-26T20:56:00.001+08:00

wake up around 12plus.nobody at home.
parents went to market to have lunch and bought things back home.
online until 2pm.went to bathe went out.
bought double cheeseburger.nice nice. :)))))))* muacks
on my way back to hougang enjoying my burger.reach hougang change bus back home.
wonderful dinner at home.daddy fry prawn and wanton.still,i love the boil wanton.
thanks mummy.iloveyou. :))))))))))))))))))) hehe.i always love her home made wanton.
i also know how to do but choose water chestnuts and prawn is hard.she boil water chestnut.
so nice.how i wish i everyday can eat her home made wanton n water chestnut drink.
thanks mummy.

a fake smile always stay...

2007-08-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

today,wanted to go to beach.
but i sleep until 3pm than wake up.
everyone waiting for me to wake up.don't know why they dnwna wake me up.
haha.i wake up that time daddy sleeping at brother room.so i went back to sleep.
wake up that time,brother sleeping.but i wake up already.sun already burn my butt.
daddy gonna buy roller blade for me! :)))))))))))))))))))))
breakfast and lunch only eat 3bread and one cup of coffee.thanks dad. :)*
im still sick.med eat finish already but still cough like mad. =\
went out,have dinner together with my parents and brother.
after that,went to ntuc to buy alot of things because they going to bring it to office to pray for good brothers out there.bought my fav chocolate mint.
reach home around 9plus.meet duncan at her house.pass her cig and stuck at her house watch campus superstar.she's so mad about the shawn and keely.brother called me and came down to find us.talk to him,always giving mummy so many problem.thanks my dear g0ngg0ng.she feed me bi pa gao to eat.after result,accompany brother buy mac also buy for mummy.
take care everyone.

2007-08-24T13:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday afternoon,
went to polyclinic to see doctor.
stupid doctor call me to have blood test because i tell him say i got fever.
regret telling him!tell him that i never eat fever med that's why my fever is on and off type.
he said:"you better go do a blood test."
finish seeing doctor accompany mummy go mac.
i eat fries only. =x
after that,went to amk hub take alook her watch.
she wanna change watch.

wanted to attend to school today,
but lazy to wake up.
have been coughing like mad the whole night. =/
lucky never attend to school.minkai also never attend because teacher never attend too.
hehe.mummy say i lazy to attend to school because she want me to attend to school today.
im alone at home,they went for work. =\ im bored staying at home,but im lazy going out.
i wanna smoke =^

2007-08-23T12:47:00.000+08:00

never attend school again.
morning,mummy came into my room and touch my forehead saying that im very hot. =/
headache,but after wake up im okie.accompany them go downstair eat breakfast.they wanted to work but suddenly daddy vomit. =? so they never work.
going to see doctor later.always eat finish the med but still never recover.stupid doctor.
stupid health.my health is getting bad :))))
mummy always says that my room got cig smell.she check my bag and say because your bag got a packet of cig.haha.she never say anything.yesterday,already tell her say i got smoke so does my brother.well,she said:"life is yours.whether you wanna listen anot is your problem."i did ever mention to her that my brother friend do touch drugs.she said:"if your brother do touch drugs than prepare i will call 999."

at times,i really thinking should i just let go of everything.
just because iloveyou so i hold on.but sometimes,just because i loveyou i should let go.
thinking of holding on is because i want back everything of you and me.
thinking of letting go is because i don't wish you to suffer because of me.
love is just a game in our life.life is just a bet in this world.
yes,everyone deserve a chance.but the things that i see.
it seems like im nothing.im sad and hurt but still im holding on.
is because of me,that's why you have change to a hard hearted person.
now i know why people always do something wrong they always wanna hold on.
they just wanna return back,sorta repay back and partly they really love the person.
colleen even say,our age is better to let go and you will feel better.haha.
well,everyone have their view.nobody is always right of course nobody is perfect.
human always love to say each other,is not a bad thing after all.is a learning life.
most of the people will not accept people to say them because they always never realise they are in the fault.of course,people must say somethings that can make them accept that they are in the fault.in this life,you will never learn finish even human heart and mind.human is too complicated.making life complicated.
happy is just awhile,it always kept inside people heart.
i believe everyone wants a simple life.but is so hard to get.feeling is a weird thing.
unless,we don't have heart we wont feel anything.
hopefully,my next life will not be human again.
ren zhen de hen nan zuo.going to rest. =/

2007-08-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

20th aug,
attend to school.finish school went to meet charlotte.
pass her the charger.mood isnt that good.
sorry that i shouted at you.because i really damn angry with everything and somethings that you say too.well,is the past.never bother to think.
everything is over. =]] im alone walking in my life.
take cab home around 6plus.charlotte went for work.

21th aug,
i going no voice soon!im sick. =/ never attend to school.
sorry wendi and yungzhi.because already say wanna meet up in school at 9am.
im sorry.wake up around 10plus if im not wrong.brother school om called my house and complain about him.daddy fetch me to see doctor.take two day mc.wanted to go back home but i accompany them out to work.around 3plus went down to my brother house to see the om.after that,return back to daddy office around 4plus?i don't remember.help him to do his work.went home after that,prepare went to sushi tei to eat.
after dinner went back home.the whole day i ve been talking alot with my parents about my brother.my voice really alike chicken voice. :(
chat on the phone with jiayu for two hours!
yesterday,i really wanna hold on you,but i realise is time to let go.
im here always,i still loveyou thou you hurt me.
hope there's a day you will be clear and know what you want and everything.
if you wanna let it go,just go ahead. =]]
i've done my part already.

today,wake up around 11plus.
online until 1plus.prepare myself,accompany my mum went to sgh.
stupid daddy,say wanna fetch us down but end up sleep like a pig at home.mummy never bother to wake him up.
stupid doctor.see him and chat with him also need to do payment.
now i know why doctor so rich.tot,today gonna operate my mum thumb.who knows that stupid doctor tell her say you are here to see your back.so next tue,mummy going down to hosptial again.totally waste our time and money to take cab down.
guess,daddy know mummy is angry with him.he don't even call my mum and ask her where is she but he called me and ask me where we are.he came and find us together with a apple that he's eating and he just ask me wanna eat anot.i said no.he just walk away and gone missing.until mummy finish seeing doctor and doing payment that time than he came back.fuck can.
he have to move his bloody butt walking around and just can't stay beside my mum and accompany her.don't know why he bother to come down.mummy don't even give a damn whether he wanna accompany her anot.she always say,don't come better.see his bloody face also damn sian.

2007-08-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

ds16th aug,
never attend school.stay at home the whole day.
early morning,mummy wake me up and call me to buy breakfast for her because her stomach not feeling well.was waiting for kelson call but she never contact me.i went back to sleep.afternoon mummy wake me up again and ask me to accompany her go see doctor.i never bring my phone so end up,i never meet kelson.accompany my mum the whole day.see i so guai.reach home around evening.went to smoke but never finish because my mum contact me and call me to help my dad to buy cig and beer la.arghs.those people out there must be happy for me because the whole day i never smoke.haha.

17th aug,
everyone must be surprise.i attend to school!thanks baby.she call me and wake me up and her voice so fierce.after school,went to her school and fetch her.accompany her go home.after that,she came my house and stuck at my house until 6plus.sleep until 545pm wake up and she's still sleeping.went to meet duncan to pass her cig,went back home and bathe than wake that baby fish up.get out of the house around 630pm.saw my parents.shock the both of us.mummy saw her again.lucky daddy never see her.take bus to ps.reach ps around 830pm.bought 10pm show,watch papaya movie.went to swensens to find kelson.called her but she never pick up.so went in and eat.haha.she was so stunned when she saw me.haha.damn funny la she.she's still the same. =]] after finish eating,went to smoke together with her.the papaya show not bad.the last part i don't really like it alot.haha.watch until 12am if im not wrong.cab back home.send her home than i go home.

18th aug,
wanted to go watch fireworks together with charlotte but end up i never.
because mummy want me to accompany her.i very good girl.always accompany her.
due to my work.seldom accompany her.im sorry charlotte.stay at home the whole day and i sleep alot the whole day.early morning went to meet baby to return her,her books.after that,went home.she went for training.i went home and sleep until she finish her training than wake up.around 4plus i went to sleep until going 7pm than wake up.went out with my parents.went to tangs.bought everlast shoes.i gonna be a piggy.i wanna go back to work. =/ i think i will grow fat when im not working.

19th aug,
wanted to go suntan together with leon but end up never because she say the weather is bad.indeed is bad after that.haha.staying at home the whole day.never smoke for two days already. =/ online the whole afternoon.before evening offline.chat with jiale and i say her.well,got not much comments about she and leon.still is their problem.take care everyone.

2007-08-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

what have i been doing this few days.
gonna update now. =]] don't have time to blog. =/

9th aug,
thursday,national day.working 10-6.
after that,daddy and mummy fetch me after my work.
parents waited for brother but he haven't reach home.always like that.
end up,one call from him,daddy went to fetch him.damn pissed with him.
i treat them eat at taka sushi tei.not very nice actually.i still like paragon sushi tei.
after having dinner went back home.if im not wrong i cry at night.well,i don't really remember much.

10th aug,
pri and sec school having holi and guess those ite,poly n etc have to attend to school.
well,im working that day.so i didn't attend to school.work until 6.if im not wrong,leon came and find me that day.she went to suntan.after suntan come back and find me well im smoking.haha.after that,what happen i don't remember already.

11th aug,
actually,work from 10-10.but last min i say i can only work until 6.
i suddenly don't feel like working.damn long hours.i still can work after that.before that,im headache and not feeling very well.so don't bother.after work,went back home alone.meet duncan.charlotte wanted to meet me and keep call me go town but i don't want.have dinner with duncan than she went to meet her mummy at hougang than i went home.

12th aug,
after work,have dinner with my parents.went to taka to find a taiwan woman to get information from her.talk to her damn funny.she say about my relationship.say i 30 will get married.dots.my dad told her he want me to married around 20plus.so bad.but all is joking.return home after that.

13th aug,
i only remember i sorta quarrel with wendi.fuck pissed with her.
well,don't give a damn.don't bother to care much about her.
if don't have her as a friend is ok.im just giving yungzhi face.

14th aug,
attend to school but i was late.reach school ard 1.left at 2plus.went to tamp inter tak bus back to hougang.wanted to take train down from there but i miss the stop so i take bus back home.sit at house downstair smoking.my brother and his friend saw me and he ask me for cig.damn idiot.got one china idiot guy talk to me well im smoking.he ask if im 18 anot and do i know that 18 than can smoke.he stay at my house downstair.his kinda insane.damn pissed off.i ask him,who is he.he show is id and guess what.it stated china police but is handwriting on it.he say he gonna call police i say you go ahead.damn crazy.bad day!went home bathe,after that went down to vivo to take cig from ekin.thanks alot.saw prima,accompany her go locker.she say she hungry.i have not been eating since 12th afternoon until today.haha.stomach not feeling very well.we went to marche to eat.very full until i feel like vomit.thanks to prima.talk to mr thomas our boss.reach amk wanted to meet duncan but never.she last min say she at alston house so cant meet up.thanks felicia.she have been accompany me talk on the phone. <3

15th aug,
today,attend school but i was late.
i guess,i always late to school forever.
reach school around 10.went back around 12.
went home to sleep.baby came my house and study end up also never study.
we patch already. =]] parents reach home around 6.i saw daddy car at house downstair and i open the door i saw my mum.scare the hell of me and baby.haha.damn funny and weird.nothing much to blog.tomorrow,going out wit kelson.

2007-08-08T13:19:00.000+08:00

6th aug
monday,got no school.
went out to meet yungzhi and he was late.
went to buy cig than acc yungzhi to cut hair.meet charlotte at tamp.
after yungzhi finish cutting his hair he went home to bathe and came to tamp mac to find me and charlotte.accompany her study until 4plus went to tp together.she study together with her friend so yungzhi and i went to library to sleep.around 6plus came out of the school.waited for her at the bus stop.went to tm to have dinner.she eat only.both of us never eat.haha.went to 77th street to shop and bought two belt and one long sleeves.yungzhi wanted to go amk hub and shop around but end up never because it was late already.he accompany me home.thanks. =]]
reach home around 10plus.

7th aug
tuesday,attend to school.late for lesson but not very late also.
find that today is a weird day.i don't know why.
finish school went to bus stop to wait for bus and never expected this kinda things will happen.
this guys study in simei ite,studying business course.he look fine suddenly he just collapse and vomit blood in front of me,wendi and yungzhi and those people at the bus stop.it was so scary.scare the hell of us and everyone was like standing up and i'm the only girl sitting at the bus stop.yungzhi called wendi leave the seats.nobody dare to touch that guy and don't know what to do too.after that,bus came and we take the bus.ambulance came to save that guy.wanted to meet fion but never.she always late.i also not feeling very well after the incidence happen.i feel like vomit and i totally got no app to eat anything.meet charlotte and she acc me take bus back to amk hub.on my way home was listening radio.around 7plus there's someone collapse well waiting for train and just die at the track at tamp mrt.g0sh.reach amk hub walk around.than she went to tpy to meet her mum together wit her brother at sports hall.reach home eat one chicken pie.after that,my mum ask if i eat dinner already not.i say no and she call me to acc her go eat pizza.meet brother at pizza hut but we all never finish eating.i damn hell full.

8th aug,
today,never attend to school.going to acc my mum to sgh later.
she going there to check up i think.
take care everyone.

i missyou sharon and mag. <3

2007-08-01T17:04:00.000+08:00

today never attend school.
do work at home.
stay at home the whole day never contact anyone and no one contact me too.
great.im alone staying in my world.
i realise human are just so weird.life is selfish.world just sucks.
we can only change our mood but not life.life is selfish because of human.world sucks because what human have done.whatever obstacles we have we have to take it and solve it.staying in this world,everyday you can try to do is to make yourself stay happy.whatever happen yesterday is a past.no point hold on bad memories,is bad for your health.happy memories always can remember.but still,all is the past.
no matter how mature people are.our heart is still young.we will still act childish.
my life left nothing.is either attend or not attend school,study and working.

to the fake minkai.please if you wanna tag my board just put your name.

2007-07-23T20:52:00.000+08:00

today,attend to school.
i missyou so much.haha
sat and sun together work for 20hours.
gonna take a break on aug.going back to work maybe when i having holiday.
i sleep like a pig.never attend morning lesson.late for thy and practical lesson.
stupid hock ann keep disturb me today.i will never find the cat anymore.in school stupid yungzhi talk about cat so nicol ask me about the cat and still ask me if why i never bring the cat to school.hais.i miss it so much. :((((((((((((((((((((((
go school is just a waste of time.
i have been slacking around in school and i feel like sleeping.
tomorrow,going to meet fion.she going overseas soon i think.
will missyou my dear.take care yourself when you're overseas.
nothing much to blog about also.take care everyone.
i missyou,my dear kitten.<3>

2007-07-20T09:40:00.001+08:00

today,never attend to school.
wanted to attend.wake up already but after that still went back to sleep.
wake up,chat with wendi because she called me.heard a bad news.never expect that yesterday it was it last day staying my house.
daddy put the kitten at house downstair.when i wake up,i heard no sound of the kitten.mummy tell me say daddy put at house downstair already.all liars.mummy always say she wanna put downstair but she never.daddy always say if mummy wanna put at house downstair than put in your room and take care.end up,he's the one who put at house downstair.after parents,went for work.i still can hear the kitten sound at house downstair.but went downstair i can't find it and it also never make any sound anymore.every moments spent with you i will never forget.thou,you very noisy but still you are cute.being with you,makes me feel much better.but now you are gone...
will i get to see you again?hais.
crying over a kitten kinda stupid?just bring it back for only three weeks.i try my best to hold on it when mummy keep say wanna throw away.end up,all liars fooling around.at times,i try to stand in people shoes but still they are the one who lie.who will even find that they are in the fault when someone just lie to them.everything only other people can say and change.FOR FIONA,you cannot do that.EVERYONE BLAME YOU.EVERYTHING IS YOUR FAULT.no mood.don't feel like bother anything anymore.im the one who make everything left.
who will believe that a bad girl will guilty when she done something wrong?
whatever,is not important anymore.life just sucks.whatever part you do in your life is just sucks.

nothing much to blog.leave me alone. :`(

2007-07-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

this few days kinda down?
yesterday,receive a bad news from my aunt about her house cat going to die anytime.
end up,this morning her cat died around 930am.when i was together with my mum eating breakfast.kinda sad and i nearly cry.that cat name berlin.is a very nice and beautiful cat.
last week i just stay at aunt house,she was fine.she keep looking at me and i keep sayang her and play with her.ended up,never expect that she get kidney failure.
i don't know why im so tired.i don't know issit because i smoke too much.
tomorrow,not going to attend school.early morning needa go to oaunt house to take cat cage.needa put the kitten inside the cage.is getting naughty and mummy wanted to throw him at house downstair.after that,wanted to bring him to othe 9th floor.got one aunty stay at there know how to take care of cat.but i don't want.i want him stay.but after that,i think about it should really give it away.hais.
just pissed with everything in my life.feel like giving up alot of things.getting sick of tired man.
school starts going to try my best to study.but still will slack most of the time i guess.haha.
1st week of school got two projects needa do.haven't start doing yet because i don't know how to design.thanks my dear charlotte needa help me in my design than i can start to do my projects.
im gonna be dead in school.everyday 5pm then finish school.only friday finish school at 11.but start lesson at 8.i bloody have to wake up at 6am.i always have to wake up 2hours before school starts.arghs.

2007-07-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

today,thinking of waking up earlier to wash clothes hang out clothes went swimming than iron clothes.end up,i wake up at 9plus hang out clothes outside and went back to sleep until 11plus than wake up.damn headache.don't feel like moving and doing anything.feel like sleeping but wake up,went to wash clothes.after that,watch tv until 1plus.went down to swim but got no sun.can't suntan.arghs.went to spa.went back aunt house at 4plus,went to bathe come out use computer chat online with felicia and iron clothes.after that,went out to have dinner.just reach home not long.went to walk around at bugis.come home,first thing on computer because my aunt wanna see her precious and cute doggie.haha.cousin haven't come back home.think she's enjoying outside with the guy!so old already still wanna mix with my cousin.well,can't bother much with her life too.the dogs are waiting for her to come back to feed them to eat their supper.im headache again. =/

take care everyone
misses and huggs. <3
loves

2007-07-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

today,
morning went to work.wake up late but im not late for work.
actually doing service but after that juliana call me to do host awhile after that i do until i finish work.i stand there damn hungry.eat before i go to work.do host actually is not a easy job also.well,whatever we do in marche is not easy.went to coffee club and eat after that went back home to bathe and wash clothes.tomorrow off.going to hang out clothes than iron clothes and go swimming than come back bathe and maybe going out.saturday,going to work from 11-11.sunday,after work going home.monday,start school already.sian. =/
kinda bored.alone at aunt house now.cousin can study nus.is a good news.she's working and she haven't reach home.think she's on her way already.

take care everyone.
huggs and misses.<3

2007-07-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

have not been blogging for sometimes already.
ever since the day i come back from msia.
have been busy working.sorry if i neglect my dear friends out there.
my trip was okie.just shop around that shop that i need to buy clothes from the shop.
still,i spent the most and i bought the most but can't really see much the things that i bought.
reach sg around 2plus-3 midnight on saturday night and i never sleep the whole night until 7am.after that,i don't remember what happen.i only know before the day i went to msia i went to fisherman to drink with some friends.well,im not drink but i feel giddy and when i reach home i just lie on the bed and talk on the phone and i feel very confuse and tired and lying like a dead person on the bed.
start work on 25th of june.working everyday.
kinda sick now but still haven't die.haha.if not i wont be blogging.
kinda lame and bored.

will not be at home this whole week until sunday.staying at my aunt house this week.
never go to work on last sunday because i got fever on saturday after my work.
working is kinda bored today.
after work str8 come back to my aunt house and pack clothes,wash clothes and bathe than online awhile.get out of her house at 8plus.went to aunt house to take my cousin uni letter and she's kinda down because she actually can go in to nus but because she open the letter late and she have to make a trip down to nus tomorrow.the due date was 27june.is already 1week.
well,she's a strong girl and she didn't cry.at times really find that she's a weirdo.

wendilyn is not gonna work anymore.quite a no. of marche people also call me to call her to quit and now she tell me say that she wanna quit.i still gonna work on weekends when im having school.this saturday gonna work for 12 hours.next week going to reopen school already.gonna be bored.
yungzhi,please take care yourself.
wendilyn i don't know what's wrong with you but i just find that you are hurting him when you are treating him cold.
maybe both of you should just break up.
just a advice.loves<3

take care everyone out there.

lovely one <3

2007-06-22T22:27:00.001+08:00

girl, you're away in malaysia right now.
and i miss you super truck loads my dear girl :)
soon, you will be back. let's say 1 day plus, 26 hours more t go.
baby, i am awaiting for your return patiently.
i miss you alot girl.

this girl, has been damn busy over the past few days.
stupid one. haha. and i hope she will be alright.
i pray that you will be okay :)
i love you, always.

you know who i am-mouldy bread.

2007-06-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

FINALLY i can get into ya blog aft all e 1235436587623846 tries.
cos e pw is wrong!
aniwae fiona tis pig is workin now n den.
no tym to blog s i decided to flood n invade ya blog again.
c la.s rusty lao. *clean dust*
alot flies flying around lo. *flies flies*
hehe.tis toopid pig look s cute n funi in ha workin uni. =x
ops. expose u.haha!
aniwae study la.kip on work os no use de.
no cert os carn bring u aniwae wat idiot.haha.=x
lalala.~ i din say aniting.hehe.
well cum online more often leh.reply tags leh.
ya tag board os lyk wan rot lao lo. ):
haha.reply tag okay?
i will END here. tc. [=

2007-06-11T20:05:00.000+08:00

9th june'o7
saturday,after finish work str8 go meet daddy at level 2.
grandma is there also =S together with brother.
mum at whampoa with uncle and aunty waiting for us at there to have dinner together.
eat fish steamboat.drink alot of water.so hot!
after that,went to chinatown to change malaysia money.
after everything went home.

10th june'o7
sunday,work from 1pm to 9pm.actually working from 1pm to 7pm.but extend because baby having dinner with her family to celebrate father's day in advanced.got nothing to do so work 2more hours.aftre work str8 go take bus back to amk.but don't know why i cant get to sleep and damn bored.keep playing game.went to meet duncan.so suay.daddy called me and i never pick up and he went to stand outside the door there look at house downstair well we are walking to the next block.he left food for me.end up,went back home and eat.so little,don't know why he wanna left food for me.i also not hungry la.i drink water until very full.

11th june'o7
monday,yesterday night sleep at 3plus.don't know why i can't get to sleep.
play game.after that,tears drop down and i cry well im getting to sleep.
they left me outside alone again.brother keep go to parents room and sleep and they on air con.hais.wake up at 8plus.damn tired and blur.change time to 11 end up meet up duncan at 1130.went to eat before we go swimming.3plus she complain she hungry.g0sh.leave yck at 4plus.went to kfc to eat cheese fries.after eating went back home and go out again.brother playing ps2 with friends.bring his homework out and check together with duncan.reach home at 7plus.sorry baby that i can't meet you.gonna teach brother homework until 10pm.gonna watch tv later.take care everyone. =]]

2007-06-08T13:00:00.000+08:00

haven't been updating for four days.

5th june'o7
tuesday,have exams.well,some question i still can do.
i think im gonna fail man. =s
baby send me to school and waited for me and send me back home.
i wanna sleep but never.parents at home and she cant come my house.
went to take bus and intend to sleep in the bus.but never.we went to vivo because meet up leon.haha.sorry to let you wait and wait okie. =x end up,we cab down.accompany leon go buger king eat but me and baby never eat.saw asri.he working at vivo.nice chat with him. =))))))
after that,we walk around vivo.nothing better to do.accompany leon go buy her jelly bean.after that,she accompany us walk to the bus stop and she walk back to opp bus stop and take bus go home.reach amk,accompany baby take bus and meet parents at amk hub and we have dinner together than went home together.

6th june'o7
wednesday,wanted to go sentosa but never.the weather kinda weird.
wanna rain but never.the sun not even bright and shine. =^
take bus to the end and take bus back to vivo.went to eat after that,take bus home and sleep.
parents is out to work. =))))))) baby come my house.hehe.
sleep together.really very tired.haha.i coming mense. =( sleep until 6plus.
wanted to send baby to bus stop but never.because she wanna walk pasa malam.
went to amk hub and she have her dinner there.i never eat.parents bought dinner for me.
went home and eat.she send me back home again than she take bus home.haha.
funny she.i only eat one bowl of rice.daddy gimmi alot.very full.app not very good and i feel so full before i eat.

7th june'o7
thursday,went to sentosa toegther with baby.
good weather.hehe.never suntan like that time.
got sunburn but not that pain like that time.hehe.
enjoy the day with you. =]]
meet up leon at vivo,long john sliver.
fishy wanna eat fish.haha.i tell her i don't want eat and she bought for me.
i come mense and she still bought two big cup of coke man.i drink alot of cold water!
my stomach keep pain and i keep shout at them.haha.leon bring her son down and they also eat long john for dinner.after that,went to daiso than wanted to sit outside but suddenly rain.went to play arcade and that leon keep say about the para thingy.make me so paiseh. =^ stupid you.haha.sorry keep beat you,because you keep say me and bully me.haha.after play arcade went to play water.because it stop raining. =)))) went home at 10.reach home at 11plus if im not wrong.went to bathe after that eat fruits and get myself into bed.stomach pain!wake up at 4plus.daddy suddenly make alot of noise.go toilet and my mum say he always drink and always so crazy.after that,my dad shouted at her say don't need to talk so much to children.you want come talk to me and he start to scold alot of vulgarities.never give a damn.crazy him.he break glasses and mummy sweep e floor.accompany my brother sleep because he bloody scare him and he cannot sleep well.after that,he change his working uniform and went out of the house.don't know him la.whenever couples quarrel,they always don't find that they are in the fault.no point talking much when they always find that they are right.he tell my mum say he not gonna bother about this house anymore and call her to handle this burden.mum say he might really put down everything.well,we will see how.maybe,he coming home and tell my mum say he gonna divorce.haha.who knows.whatever.can't bother much too.cannot go out.today,gonna stay at home and accompany my mum and my brother having fever.going to bring him to doctor at night.wondering if he tonight gonna come back.

2007-06-04T12:27:00.000+08:00

today,
don't need attend school.i don't even know about it until wendilyn told me about it.

this few days very moody and now im damn angry but it also make me awake from my dream.

morning,wake up at 6plus accompany fishy to eat breakfast at mac.she never finish.stupid her.
after eating,the sun rise and is so hot until we move to another table.sit there lying on her and sleep.hehe.she didn't know i really sleep.i very tired ma.haha.but she gonna be damn tired than me.going to do somethings for the fairwell thingy for her senior,after that she gonna have trging at 1pm until 4pm.went back home at 9am.sleep from 9-12pm wake up.later going to do passport together with my parents but they are still not back.

i will never drop a fucking tears for you and you will bloody fuck off of my life.

2007-06-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

yesterday night sleep quite early?
i don't remember.today wake up at 815.
prepare get out of my house and go to work.
start work at 10am,finish work at 3pm.
wendilyn is late bcos she went to eat due to she's hungry.haha.
end up,we all having break.she say huh!haha.so funny.
after work,daddy never come fetch me =(
end up,i went to suntec myself and take a look whether they got sell portable dvd but they never.thanks yungzhi and wendilyn accompany me today.went to meet up my parents at marina square.went to have dinner together with them.really full man.
wanted to sleep but never.cant get to sleep.kinda tired.
tomorrow,that fishy coming back singapore. =]]

i realise whenever i loveyou,there will be unexpected things going on with us and that's very bad.maybe this is why we always quarrel.well,is over too.no way turning back and i wont return back to you.that's it.this things really screw up my life.i believe you too.that's why i didn't wanna love you and wanna return back to you and being with you anymore.well,ilove jiayu.go with your serene.enjoy being out with her.i don't wish to even drop down any tears for you and i fucking don't uderstand why i will wanna drop myu tears yesterday when you was with me.i hate the question that you ask.mummy say being with you long really find you irritating.you really makes me pissed.you are not who you are.we are getting hard to communicate because we dislike our talking ways.whether you are drunk anot yesterday,i don't even give a damn.saying that you wanna go home but you are still out.is your life too.don't need to report things to me anymore.always enjoy meeting her alright.loving you is a crime.don't tell me how much you love me even you say is from your bottom of your heart because you always make me feel like you are playing me out.being with you i got low esteem.seriously,what you want you got.even pretty girls out there so don't say that you are ugly.

take care everyone out there. =))))))))))))

2007-05-31T11:57:00.000+08:00

wake up at 11plus going to 12.
g0sh.ytd say going to talk to charlotte on the phone until 1am but i hang up bfer 1am because i really cannot take it.sorry.still,i know i treat you bad.i don't wanna treat you unfair too.maybe to you,you find that the way i treat you now is really unfair.i don't wish to use you to replace her when she's not in singapore.treat me so well like how you use too.fiona is a bad girl alright.go find other girl ba.your friends will be there to celebrate your birthday too.time flys,i believe your feeling will fade.
i this few days really sleep like a pig can.
parents went out to eat,left me and brother at home.he bring his friends again.
going to work later at 3pm.going to eat than take bus down to work place.
tonight,going out with my parents after my work.they going chinatown to have dinner and go take a look see where they wanna go for holiday.update again. =]]

2007-05-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

wanted to go rest but end up meet up ernie,yungzhi and wendilyn at hougang.
went to ernie house.the reason why i go is because i take belt from yungzhi and he take my phone to use.tomorrow,not gonna meet leon.she suddenly need to accompany her gf to go interview.hais.sian.im gonna be damn bored.not sure if i having dinner with my parents tomorrow.went back home around 6plus.
i don't know why i feel so tired.maybe is because i going to sick soon.
i missyou so much.my whole mind was you.im kinda moody after you tell me say you have to board the aeroplane.im very happy to receive your message just now.but i don't dare to reply as you say is your brother phone and he don't even know you use his phone to message me.scare later he say you.went to ernie house and reply your letter.they keep disturb me la.idiot.especially yungzhi.what pmk.irritating.
tomorrow,gonna to work. =S kinda bored but still,im gonna work.if not i really nothing to do and im really wasting my life doing nothing.ernie got a job already =]]

take care everyone out there.

2007-05-30T12:36:00.001+08:00

that stupid fishy fly already.
she only can swim but she can fly now.
she's on her way to other country to enjoy her holiday.
wanted to go school but wendilyn,yungzhi and ernie also not in school.
they only went for thy lesson and they dnwna go practical lesson and they wna go PIE lesson.
after that,they dont intend to return back to school.keep change.end up,never go.going to meet them outside.accompany them.hais.sian.kinda moody.
guess,im gonna update some other day or maybe tonight.
take care everyone out there.
misses and huggs <3>

2007-05-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

have not been updating.
kinda tired and i sleep alot today.
never attend to school today is because i accompany jy today.
she going overseas tomorrow.gonna miss her lots.
she's not gonna fetch me after my work. =s
morning meet duncan just to take mc.haha.thanks for accompany me today.i very guai.listen to you just to take mc.after see finish doctor wanna go home but my parents at home.at house downstair saw mummy.than both of us hide.after that,we went to smoke.wanted to go econ buy drinks saw my mum than i run to hide.so funny and idiot.after saw duncan and ask if she wanna eat anot.haha.wait for her uncle not at home than we go to her house.we watch the movie.i do i do.so funny.haha.she say i treat her bad when she go my house.my house also got no nice cd to watch.she come my house also busy using computer.after that,duncan went to take her cert and im alone and that idiot jy really sleep like a pig can.call her don't know how many times and she never pick up.went to mac alone and eat fries.call brother hp but is not on.went back home.see if my brother at home.call him to bring out my bag and i wear back uniform than go home.mum ask,the uniform. inside the bag is who's.i say is not mine.she so free until she keep touch things and keep eat things.went to rest.wanted to meet jy at mac but end up meet at my house because parents went to work.brother friends really noisy and i sleep the whole afternoon.i miss her and i keep hug her and hug her so tight.hehe.maybe is because tomorrow she going overseas to have her holiday.had my dinner.so full can.actually dnwna eat.but after that,feel like eating porridge.and guess what.mummy went to throw away!end up,i eat rice la. =^ arghs.i realise i use money very fast can.g0sh.

26th may
saturday,is my first day of work at marche.
start from 12-8.thou their pay is high but is quite suffering than the previous job that i work.ernie work until 4pm and she left.because she cant work at there due to beer and pork.she wait until jason come to work.me and wendilyn still continue work together.after work,really tired.i never work for 4months.now suddenly work and have to stand for 8hours non stop.jy came and fetch me after her sentosa trip.hehe.dinner never eat.accompany wendilyn.she eat long john.after that,she and her bf went to meet up her friends.me and jy went to take bus home.saw puiyan.she change alot.she kinda blur and tot jy call her.haha.

27th may
wake up at 11 went to bathe and get out of my house take bus to work place.
reach there around 1230.jason write wrong time of my work time.i should be starting work at 1-7 but he write 12-6.i work until 7 because wendilyn work from 3-7.min work 4hours.was kinda pissed when i work that time.there got alot of malays working.they keep order me to do things but still i find that is my job.it gonna make me learn things.i realise from e time i step in until now i never learn much.they just remind me what to do and what i should not do.wendilyn first day work as fruit bar.second day,put all the utensil.well,all those i know how to do but more over all is still different when i work at marche and coffee club.the plates really heavy.the second day i work and i break a glass.maybe is because im kinda tired and pissed.but after that,i was alright.after work,jy came and fetch me.she went out with weiting to bugis.she wanted to go grandma house/accompany her mum shopping but end up she never.haha.thanks for fetching me.after work went to eat pasta.never finish eating because im full.im getting fat again. =s

im so tired and i wanna sleep again.haha.have fun today with jy.

2007-05-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

today,
wanted to go school okie.
i damn hell tired la.fuck man.
i yesterday sleep at 3.cant get to sleep because alot of noise.
stupid daddy never close the door although he lock outside door
end up,i go close and lock the door than call my brother to accompany me sleep.
wake up at 630.he went to school and i went back to sleep like a pig.
8plus parents so noisy going out work.mummy kpkp me already.
say you never go school already,if continue lidat you will think of not to go school anymore.
i don't even wanna stay.i cant continue sleep so late also.gonna attend school man.
later going to lavender food court to meet charlotte to take shoes from her than going to bugis to buy black jeans after that going to city hall to take daddy cake and help yz to buy cig.haha.if not tomorrow he gonna bored to death.he's so sweet.fetch her gf work and wait until she finish.8hours man.g0sh.wondering will he smoke until he die.haha. =z than going back to amk to meet karling to take perfume than i going back home.
going to bathe soon.take care everyone.muacks. <3

2007-05-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

today,
wake up at 7am.wanted to go school.too tired.
yesterday sleep at 2am.watch tv until 1230.pack things until 1plus than go on bed chat on the phone.fishy not in the good mood yesterday and she cried badly.so entertain her.im always here for you fishy.don't cry anymore.you are a monster fish that's strong.don't be a crying fish.you are no longer cute okie if you still continue cry =x.take care yourself.
wake up,turn here and there.still on my bed until 11 than wake up use computer.
went to bathe around 1130.wanted to take bus down but confirm late.that karling also late la please.and she always damn hell late.after that,she say she wil be late.i get out of my house at 12plus.take bus down.reach there at 145pm and she say she in the train.i waited for her for 1hour an 30mins than she reach.g0sh man.went to taka to eat seoul garden.get out of that place at 4plus.went to guess shop to buy her bag.after that,went to city hall to book cake for tomorrow.tomorrow is daddy birthday!went to find her ear pies.went to coffee club find mag.jason no longer working there.today,he's last day and heard that he cry.coffee club so messy and so many thing happen.just now missing 200bucks.cause of that malay guy again.she hug me so tightly and turn me around.she's single.haha.im single too and she ask me be her gf i say okie lo.in a joking manner.if marche not gonna take me,maybe im going back to coffee club work.str8 went back to amk.on my way home talk to the sticky rice bung.haha.she miss mag.wanted to go daddy office but after that never.i reach amk at 615.i told them say i wil reach at 630.wanted to help but they say don't need already.end up mummy come back home,daddy not going to come home so early.going to have dinner with mummy but im not gonna eat.im damn full.haven't shit.haha.going central meet fishy to pass her letters.she cannot go home late.
my dear karling.please take care yourself.don't lidat diet please.haha.
dear fishy please take care yourself too alright.muacks.

im happy even today never drink,smoke or being crazy.haha <3
im blessed. <3

2007-05-23T19:10:00.000+08:00

today,
set alarm clock at 845 but i wake up at 850am.
take bus to school just to take test.wanted to take 10-11 but end up take 11-12pm.
haha.but we all copy ans and only got 10qus so do very fast =x
chit chat in class.after that,nicol came back to take test.i tot he take already.
he never prepare,end up he went to study than he take 11-12 test.he came in at 11plus.
haha.he so bad la.talk to him nicely and he so rude but it was just playing.
stupid martin and hoe gern disturb me.he come in class than smile at me,kinda weird.bfer i walk to class i saw him already.tink he never saw me.dont care also.haha.
he sit in front of me and sae the test was easy.he study at 3am until 330.
and he sae he study only two qus come out.damn funny and stupid.that martin keep go near wendi.yz keep push his head away and hoe gern help martin,he kinda beat his hand away and i beat hoe gern stomach.irritating sia.after that,we accompany ernie to go bugis interview.actually wanted to go home but since im free so i accompany them.the place so quiet and i dont like.i never go interview.haha.after that,went to bugis walk around to help leon to see her adidas jacket how much.129bucks.i love the small black and orange bag!it cost 55bucks.haha.ernie went to interview cause the previous interview was sucks actually.help starhub promo.g0sh.well,not interested.after that,i think of marche at vivo so we all go together and we interview together.i got a job.this is my second job.the jason interview us was a joker man.haha.he's a funny guy.duncan told me say keli is wrking at there too.i know about it too.haha.but i don't know her.
now,im gonna concentrate on my work.about studies gonna see the result.damn sian.so not gonna think about any relationship.as sharon said: love is every where. gonna find true love is still hard.studying and working people is different.i gonna independent!depend on myself!yeah.

tomorrow,gonna meet karling to go eat soul garden.
she suddenly want meet me.since both of us never meet up for so long so meet up!hehe
maybe gonna accompany leon go bugis to buy her jacket.she damn hell rich.don't know where the hell she got the money.always buy the things that she want.haha.
friday,is my daddy birthday!saturday gonna start work.still have to see performance and see if they want us anot. =]] hopefully,can work.i still haven't tell my parents. =x well,daddy always think that after i work im not gonna study.but i have been wasting alot of time in school.rather go out work for experience.maybe there's a day im gonna study the one that i really want.haha.live old and learn until old. <3
gonna meet duncan later.hehe.she's working now.take care everyone out there.
misses and huggs. <3

2007-05-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

today,wake up very early =x
haha.to me is early.i wake up at 645.hehe
get out of my house around 7plus.reach school around 8plus
have test the whole day.thanks wendilyn.she help me alot. =x
after that,we have lunch.after break finish went back to class.
12-1 pm got lunch.we stay at level 6 there slack.suddenly rain very heavily.
so windy,so nice.hehe.but is cold!have test at 1-2.copy here and there.hehe
i totally don't know but stil i read the question and do myself.of cause,i tink alot of wrong.
after test take bus to tamp than change bus to hougang mall and take bus t her* school to find her.she got things pass to me.after that,str8 return back home.
went to bathe after that online.mummy suddenly go into my room.i tot she changing but she stay inside so long.than i open the door and ask her she want sleep ar?after that,i saw her eyes red.she cried...daddy went into his room and sleep again.bloody hell him.don't know what he wanna do man.ths sun already burn his butt and he bloody still wanna sleep can.

not gonna meet felicia.well,having a stead and not having a stead really change.
is okie,just go with your boyfriend.you hardly can be there for me whenever i need you.
just take care yourself ba.i can't do anything much too.you love him until nothing can change.is your life,your choice.nothing much to talk also.whatever.

im not gonna care and bother much.don't bother to give a damn about me also. =]]
i still loveyou sharon.hehe. <3

2007-05-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

today,
set alarm at 945 wanted to wake up go to school but end up i wake up at 1030 than went to bathe and tie my hair for 15mins.end up,i stil let it down.haha.b0red.attend 2pm lesson.
get out of my house at 1130.yesterday,sleep at 2am.i cried when im on the phone.
i don't know what the fuck going on with me.i just hate it the way i am.feel life so fuck and mess up with myself.
reach school around 1pm.eat bake rice.full man.finish school at 5pm.wanted to go hougang to find my dear felicia.hehe.after that,i didn't.call her than she hang my call and she never even reply my message until i message her.that stupid idiot.humph.hehe.mum call me when im in school.she want me to accompany her to eat dinner.because daddy went out with his bloody mother.she morning call wake me up.end up cant gt back to sleep.idiot.i tot my teacher call again.haha.we eat jack place.i waited for her quite long can.call her until quite pc.the dinner really make me full. =]]

i wanna go your house,wanna go crazy.haha.
hopefully i can meet you my dear felicia.muacks
i need you. <3
thursday,is for you and me,better tell me if you can anot.if not im gonna kill you.missyou.

2007-05-20T18:20:00.000+08:00

today wake up at 1plus!
yesterday night sleep at 2plus.
im still sleeping!mum drag me up to accompany her go amk hub to highlight hair.i wanted too but i never.i wanted to cut hair too but never.haha.maybe next time.
still,i don't know what's love and im still making my mistake!
love a person so hard.have people love isnt a good thing too?
im sorry that i keep hurting and i shouldnt have step into a relationship when i can't give the best to anyone.i can't have two people in my life.i can't have two status with two person.nobody can accept their girlfriend or boyfriend to have another her/him.im a selfish idiot.
i feel so fuck with myself and my life.is all mess by myself.i don't wish to lose anyone.when you want somethings you have to lose somethings.even human.i don't wish to lose anything and anyone.i just wanna be close and be happy with everyone.love a person is very selfish and of cause everyone want it more.sorry that i can't give anything and im not the best and even everyone know nobody is perfect but im a damn hell bad girl.i didn't blame you my dear duncan,you are not the one who change me become lidat.yes,i do change and it was because what have happen the past but now is not.is all because of me,myself and what have been happen around.i just want it simple.chatted with weiru,still she's damn real funny son that i have.the way she message me damn cute and funny.she cheer me up after that and i laugh.take care yourself my dear son.study hard and get good result.mummy always here.thanks <3
love a person want the person happy.thanks jiayu,being with you really make me happy.i wanna be single and be happy with everyone.you respect me and you accept because you feel that as long as im happy you are happy too.this time,this moment,is also the time to think what i really want.im clear that i don't want any relationship and just wanna be close with you guys.i don't know why i love you charlotte and i still can let you go but not jiayu.as you say i don't have special feeling for you is because we understand each other and know what we want.having a status with you anot,i find it no differences.i don't know why i can't be that happy like the past.being with you that one year plus,even i like other people,my heart still have you and i can stay you by my side.but now,i know is all my mistake and my fault.i can't do it anymore.is a mistake and you let that mistake go thru because you know you can make me love you one and only one and because you are crazy about me and you love me so much thats why you wanna hold on and stay me by your side.but now,i don't think we still can.still,i hope to be close with everyone and hope when i need the person,the person can be there,when people need me,i hope i can be there too. <3i don't find it selfish having this wish?hope,is not a mistake.well,don't mistake for what i said in that sentence.that sentence is for the one which are close to me.thanks. =]]

2007-05-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

today,
wake up at 930?have to wake up at 9 and reach tp at 10plus.
because char finish school at 10plus.well,im late.haha.i still on computer and put songs and online chatting and messaging people using internet,went out around 10.take bus 13 to yck and take 72 bus to tamp and take 23 bus to her school.
in the bus so funny.got this guy,i don't know him.so many seats he don't wanna sit he must sit infront of me.so irritating.keep move here and there.reach tamp i wanna get down and this two guys both sit infront of me.one left another right.we stand up together and i thought they wanna walk but never.so when i wanna walk they also wanna walk out.they stop and i walk out and get down the bus.went to take bus 23.this guy sit on my left chase the bus and he look at me weird weird.but quite funny.i laugh. =x that guy get down the same bus stop as me again.haha.saw charlotte and we went school opp to eat.very hungry.eat kfc.find that the melts?if im not wrong.not very nice actually.eat two another two charlotte help me eat.hehe.i finish the cheese fries and i damn hell full.but still mouth itche and she help me bought potato because i wanna eat.hehe.they sell cheese cake.not bad actually.but still im full so i didn't eat much.went off at 3plus?very tired.don't know why.in the bus got rest awhile.wanted to meet baby at bugis but never.went to lavender find her.she went there do her ic and passport.saw her mum.quite young and pretty.i told that to baby and she laugh.so bad.she damn bad.keep laugh at people.always lidat.after that,we went to lavender food court there.she eat food i eat dessert.so yucks.will not eat their dessert anymore.after that,went to amk hub.time pass so fast.reach there already 7plus.she went there just to eat prata.walk around and she say she wanna eat strawberry.her app big la.but she's skinny man.g0sh.sit there and drink ice coffee.she eat her strawberry and drink her ice tea.went home at 8plus.tonight gonna rain heavily i guess.sleep tight everyone out there.is late.don't be owl at night.is bad for health. =x im saying myself too.hehe.

2007-05-17T13:09:00.000+08:00

today,
went to school
reach school around 9am.
ask teacher can take test anot.she say where i gone too.
she ask if i got attend school on monday anot.
i say i got attend.i reach school around 11plus.
tue went to school just to take thy test and is not even a test la please.the whole class is like copy here and there can.i also don't know how to do.
end up,she gimmi retest.i really don't know how to do.that nicol ask me to beg him to help me.damn funny la he.he's cute. =]]
i never beg him,i called wendi to help me.i got the drawing and i got the answer from yungzhi.
have to draw two drawings.stupid.nicol help me and he do wrong can.after that,he ask wendi if correct anot.is wrong can!he still say:i tell you already is wrong.what the hell man.but he's damn funny person and he's a weirdo.the question that he ask kinda weird to me.after do finish i damn hell bored.i was walking around like a idiot.im doing that time,martin came and disturb me.he ask me know how to do anot.im seriously don't know of cos i say no.than i look at him,cos he look at me okie.i look back at him than he say never see handsome guy before ar?i say don't disgusting.i don't know why i wil say that.haha.he damn sian after what i said.
hack care.nicol suddenly ask me how's life.kinda weird.getting don't understand him and i don't even understand him.he seems to be serious to minmin but that girl don't even bother about him.how sad can that be.break time only eat bread.he say i on diet ar.crazy.i don't know why i'm so full and i can't eat much la.i going to accompany baby to see doc.duncan is coming along.guess i gonna update at night.take care everyone out there. =]]

2007-05-16T21:24:00.000+08:00

today wanted to attend school but end up never.
don't know why i so tired today la.
was at home the whole day until going to 7pm than go out to have dinner.
well,went to sweet talk to buy bubble tea to drink and guess who i saw?
xueting.hehe.tomorrow she going bishan sweet talk to work.
so long never see her already.well,she's still the same,quite cute.the way she talk still the same.
after that,reach home around 8plus.today eat alot.morning had mac after that went home around 1plus have sushi.after that,sleep again.today really know how to sleep man.hehe

take care yourself my dear leon.
don't think about it so much already
get yourself some break for now and start to prepare for your upcoming exams and don't you study at midnight and get yourself not enuff sleep.
im here always for you alright.sorry that im not replying people message but my message really damn hell burst already.so yup. =]]

2007-05-16T10:37:00.000+08:00

piggy.ware r u arr...?
nv blog f s mani days ardy.
hmm.i today din g sch s im here t blog f u.^^
gg c doct.today din g sch de reason is tt i totally no mood.
cos of my result.i cried in clz.sigh.
reach hm os cry.
den cry until fall aslp.haha.=x
den wake up lyk dun rmb aniting at all.oni until aft awhile den i start to rmb.
hmm.u okay anots.y nv g sch..?hmm
mus tc hor.
haiis.make u sick. sori sori. =x

2007-05-13T13:55:00.000+08:00

happy mother's day to everyone out there.
today wake up around 11plus.yesterday night sleep around 3am.
was online until 2plus.baby wanted to go swimming today with me but i don't want.
well,today weather not very good also.suddenly rain very heavily after that stop raining and so sunny.going to rain soon.at night went to people's park to have dinner and walk around there than went home.

2007-05-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
morning wake up around 11plus i think.
after that,parents went out and work,brother also out.
after that,meet duncan awhile.she going no voice and she bloody hell still can sing kbox.
and she still smoke!bth ha.she still ask me smoke.i os sick.never touch cig hor!
eat wanton soup for brkfast and lunch.get out of my house at 5plus if im not wrong.
after that,went to amk hub eat sushi. <3 hehe.anihow eat. =x muacks.
walk around and bought two dog and one lollipop.thanks my dear. =* (don't anihw guess)
after that went to j8 walk around.kinda bored so went to take mother day's cake and went back home.mum str8 away eat and is totally digusting.well,is free.mum always say free things is always not good and serious;y,i don't like bread talk cake at all.i really find it cannot make it la. =x just comment.

today,
wake up because brother talk on the phone so noisy la.
arghs,after that mum ask me go amk hub with her!
went to bank to quick cheque.went to prata.don't come find me.go find my mum.she want me accompany her eat.and actually the food not very nice also.full and feel like vomit.after that walk around with mum.i have been walking around up and down don't know how many hundreds time.hehe.also not that much.haha.but i seriously walk alot of times because im waiting for that idiot.she make me wait about half an hour even thou i call her take her time and she really take her time la can.i wanna buy clothes!hehe.after that i very bad.i pull her go buy thing for me. =x well,keep bully her.sorry.but still have fun.she alot of vulgarities.bth.mind your language can.reach amk around?i don't remember.meet parents outside amk hub and they birng me go chompchomp eat.saw a group of sjc girls.i noe a bung der but she dno me,look at her and i think her fren tot i look at her and she tiao me.crazy.i tiao her back and i think she very unhappy.going back that time,she's the one who keep looking at me can and because i just see ma.than just turn away.got wrong meh.like that call tiao.wtf can.she tell her group of friends and they all look at me.wanted to find duncan because she's around there but after that never.think she wanted to meet me today but i was with her and we were at aracde just now.take care everyone.

somethings say much or even less will make things complicated and more misunderstding.
which girls will keep accept a guy who talk and at the same time touch the girl?
i can only say we don't understd each other at all.if you really think that we girls don't want to bother and be your friend than never mind.take it we avoid you because no matter how much i say to oyu,you got things to say.im not gonna put in negative words and ways but i guess you make it this way.we got no other meaning and seriously the way you touch ernie was wrong.there are eyes outside even if i never attend school.the guys do have eyes to see.the way you treat your friends good and you really is a good guy but the good is a extend of limit.you don't feel that only.people who done somethings wrong will they even feel and even realise until people who speaks somethings out?everyone is stubborn.seldom people will take the fact.
ernie,really hope you and your boyfriend last long.i love you.

2007-05-11T12:35:00.000+08:00

thanks my dear leon.and i where got alot to post huh?
yesterday,baby come to my house to take care of me.hehe
she reach around 12plus-1?i don't remember what time i sleep but i remember i wake up at 3.went to toilet after that went to my brother room to sleep and i start to headache.damn pain.i don't wanna sleep with her is because i don't wanna pass to her.i from 3plus pain until at night.really want die.she wanted to study if im not wrong.end up i cause her don't need study.i keep complain and make alot of noise and keep shout say my head pain.is real pain until i drop my tears in front of her.she don't know how to take care of people and this is her first time take care of people.the way she take care so funny. =x but is cute and funny.haha.thanks.
whole day never eat until 4plus.cook maggie to eat.haha.she help me bring in the clothes. =))
watch tv from 530 to 7plus.parents fetch me to bishan to see clinic.damn heng can.lucky my mum call me.if not i think she saw me and jiayu together.scare the hell of me.see doctor alone,parents went to eat.went to find them after seeing doctor.after they eat finish went home eat med and watch tv until 10pm went to room to rest and sleep.mum suddenly went to my room and talk to me.i start to headache and damn pain.i say very noisy.really bth.i keep crying,went to toilet,still crying.come out already close the door damn hard.still they are noisy.fucking shit.i called baby but she never pick up.call charlotte and talk to her awhile.after hang up i still drop my tears than get to sleep.12plus wake up again.downstair so noisy.i realise i headache is because i see the light.i will start to head pain.went to eat med than went back to sleep.dad still on air con.mum touch my head i still got fever.wake up at 11plus today.feeling better already.thanks everyone who cares about me and those who miss me and wanting me to go school.haha.i still love and miss ernie and wendi.ernie may you and boon hock last long.your darling here always love you and support you.muacks. <3

gonna meet duncan awhile to accompany her eat.i got no app and i haven't eat.haha

2007-05-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

piggy is sick.=x sori leh.
she today lyk abit dead lo.
fever for 2 days.haha.sori lo..=x
guess she nw piggy-ing ba.
den i shall once invade ha blog again to update ha blog.hahaha.
well i os currently went out of tings to say..
owell.wait till she recover tink she alot to blog bah..
haha.well tc piggy.[[= sori r e virus.haha.=x

2007-05-10T11:50:00.000+08:00

today,never attend to school again.still having fever.
that sharon so cute.early morning call me ask me help her about the computer thingy.
wake up at 10plus?damn headache.mum touch my head say i still having fever.daddy yesterday still call me to eat mango.he say never mind.than i eat lo.even if i know i can't eat.anything go find him =b don't know why eugene call me twice.return back call to him but he never pick up.ernie never attend school.don't know why she suddenly fever! =? that minkai more weird.message ask me wanna go sentosa anot.when he know im sick can.dots.
baby gonna come my house to take care of me?wondering how is she gonna take care of me.there's nothing she can do but to look at me only.haha.i feel better actually.
the sun is so hot until i going to melt and going to faint man. =!

maybe update at night.take care everyone out there

2007-05-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

wake up at 10plus?mum wake me up and ask me share wanton noodles with her.
brother reach home after that he went out so rude.don't talk about him.die already also lidat.
after that my daddy turn.sleep like a pig and don't know what he want.mum and me kinda pissed in this house already.damn fuck up.she call me change clothes and we went out of the house and went to junction 8.the shopo got open.haha.im kinda stupid that i don't know there can use nets and i went to take out money.bought mummy bag!hehe.after that,went to mac to sit and waiting for the clinic to open.saw karling and her friends.chit chat awhile after that they left.went to see doctor.after see finish doctor went back to junction 8 and i saw them again.haha.saw mrs seah,mr ong,mr chia,mr sim,mr shu,still got two more teachers i forget their name.heard from karling that mrs seah give birth one baby already and return back to bpss.
after that,went back home and rest.wake up around 5plus.stomach not feeling well.don't know is hungry or because of my mense.irritating.watch tv from the time i wake up until now.

take care everyone out there especially my dear baby ernie.
i miss my dear baby wendi and ernie.ernie belongs to me.she's my gf.
i love her and only her.nobody gonna snatch her away from me especially guys out there. =x
im gonna die for my test man.heard that is difficult.hais.kinda pissed with studies and alot of things going around.im headache!

2007-05-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

tomorrow wanted attend school but now i don't know.
because i got FEVER NOW!haha.won't die.guess nobody believe because i always pon tan school.haha. =x opps!
how i wish i can die. =x hope i got high fever and forever sleep at there and i can die.
i always hope i can die on the bed.haha.went out at 6plus going 7pm to meet felicia at juction 8.
lucky she never work.haha.so lucky of me that we finally can meet up and she can be there for me =x
haha.went to deposit money and take out money.kinda stupid because i shouldn't have deposit in and take out.i deposit less than i take out.haha.kinda dumb.both are dumb.cause when the time she meet me keep bully me and kinda beat my head =s i never complain to anyone.just the whole world.haha.see who will go find her. =x im sorry if i make you into trouble.haha.we are getting crapp again.i ding dong her.our secrets. <3
the shop don't know why never open man.kinda weird.haha.
went to find daddy cream but cannot find.bth.went to eat mos.eat my favourite ebi buger and ice coffee.haha.felicia say i slim and she say i look like her friend kailin.humph.i know you love her more than you love me already la.=( so sad.you make me cry.haha.kinda bored and high thou im headache.waiting for that pig to online and now she say she not going to online because she busy.well,never mind.im blogging too.after that,im going to rest and see if tomorrow can i attend school.haha.i keep laughing.abit idiot. =^ went to watson to find daddy cream and find my cotton.haha.im kinda blind by seeing things but not human.we walk around junction8 until 8plus going 9pm than go home.in the bus kinda not feeling well already.sorry charlotte that the phone keep auto hang is because the ear pies got problem.well,that ear pies is not mine actually.is yungzhi one.i didn't know until he tell me went i got back home.=x i didn't know anything.don't blame me. =) reach home start going faint already?haha.im strong.will not die so early.after that,went to eat apple and i feel like vomit.but still i eat finish?haha.went to brush teeth and wash face.kinda quarrel with baby because im quite angry the way she do things.but still,studies important.no point blaming her.now she know im sick and she gonna take care of me.haha.well,will see how.mood not very good actually.after that,meet my dear,she cheer me up.we both are dumb and kiddy.after that,start to feel that im fever and i call my mum to touch me see if im fever and she say yes and im laughing.haha. =* kinda crazy.self high to cheer myself up.abit not right.was on the phone with baby and kinda hack care.haha.so bad of me i know.that's me. =/ she needa do somethings so hang up call.
well,tomorrow people wanna take care of me.haha.don't need.fiona oh know how to take care of herself because she's strong. =x crappy. think i going to change my voice to man.my throat gonna be damn pain.haha.cool man.baby never hear before.
well,take care everyone out there.thanks leon.i think you are the one who pass me the fever cause you cough and we sleep in the same room with air-con.haha.i didn't blame you. =x take care yourself la alright.haha.

L0VE PEOPLE OUT THERE.muacks. <3

2007-05-08T17:23:00.000+08:00

today,
wanted to attend to school but never.was too tired so went back to sleep.
sorry my dear two baby of mine.haha.tomorrow i going attend school.haha.
if not im going to get scolding by ernie.haha.my dear.
i haven't eat the whole day.haha.because i lazy to downstair buy.haha
so i have been eating nonsense at home.that leon came to my house to do my computer.
bloody blogger really gimmi alot of problem.arghs.leon say is my computer problem.
after that,she keep sleep and wake up like don't know what.haha.because of her phone keep ringing.haha.after that,she cannot sleep well.haha.after that,i very tired wanna sleep so i went to my brother room sleep.that piggy went to my brother room and wake me up.i sleep for 15minutes.yawn.after that,i never sleep already.haha.wake up to bathe.the weather so hot.even the cold water turn warmth can.so hot.haha.wanted to go bishan but still im stuck at home.going out later ba.hehe.on the phone with eugene.chatting online with charlotte.going bishan alone i guess.

stupid baby of mine.so bad of you.i hate you.today,is our second month anniversary.
her friend see her more than i do can.humph.she call her friend to go to her house to study together with her and she never even,hais.don't talk about it.i hate her.make me sad only.she don't even put sometime on me.hais.whatever la.
just wanna tell you say happy 2nd month anniversary to you my dear.still im angry with you.

2007-05-07T19:27:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
wake up at 930 prepare went to meet baby at bus stop. took 88bus to go tpy and go mac study.well,there open party so went another mac study.
kinda bored and keep use her phone to take her pic and my pic.haha. after she study finish,i suddenly feel like smoking.i just say and she give that bloody face.
don't care.when t library,walk faster than her and i run to second floor and she cant find me.haha.she call me and i never pick up,suddenly got this pri5 girl from chij tpy school come to me and ask me to teach her maths.haha.scare me sia.she say she's alone.her parents and grandma eating.she's daring actually.haha.i don't have the heart to teach and im not in that mood.i read already i don't even understand.call for help!!! i call her and she come and find me and teach her.haha.laugh me die. =x tpy library not very good.that bloody aunty keep disturb us.cb sia.i kinda scold vulgarities in front of that girl.haha.sorry. =x
after that,than i really go read and teach her together with my baby.teaching together.haha.after that,she went to buy hotdog bread to eat.only know how to make herself hungry.bought waffle add cheese <3

today,
wake up wondering if wanna go to school not. end up,i still go.kinda waste time.but still,i enjoyed today.haha why?why do i even bother to care and even think about you when you make me drop my tears before.kinda miss. :) my strawberry lollipop.thanks my dear fazli.hehe. do our project at the second lesson.got help from nicol.thou,he's disturbing but still he got a kind heart.hehe.thanks alot.he cheer my day up.haha. still you make me smile. <3

thanks for that piggy to help me to put colours and even blog so nice for me. =) i miss you <3

2007-05-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

haha.im invading my toopid fiona blog.=x
she ask me go change colour i might as well cum here invade..
wahahaha. *evil laugh*
oh well.she super emo tis few days.
but still happy cos got us..^^
sayin tt ha blog got prob den ask me help ha see.
so i add colours to it.. whee :D
nice okay..
must thank me hor..=x
piggy kinda !@#$%^&* abt tis blog ting.hahas.
but i can do it she carn.too bad.

she's been out wid ha baby tis few days.
den i shall b light blub n brighten abit.
if not ltr at nite v dark den fiona walk half way drop into drain..
wahahha. opps. =x
ltr she gona kill me lao.
hahaha.owell.guess she's hapi wid wat she haf nw ba.
n she kip askin me n naggin me eat more.=x
which i duno wat to eat os.
if she b my menu i will b happi cos she will choose f me wat to eat.
den i dunid trouble n tink s much on my food.=x

guess she's hapi nw? more or less likely.=x
hahas.or still tinkin abt alot of tings...
which i dun wanaa guess. heh.
guess i shall stop here.
n return e blog to ha.hahaha.=x
cos im invadin it nw.

feel happy tt i blog for u okay toopid piggy.
sweet sweet fiona attract mani mani mosquito cum suck ha blood.=x

2007-05-05T16:54:00.000+08:00

wake up at 11plus.parents bought food back.
omg,is damn bloody hell oily until i feel like vomit.
never even eat half of the rice.only eat egg and that egg is damn hell oily.bth.
mum still buy two chicken wing for me to eat.gosh.i eat finish the dish.
after that,play computer and computer.my leg pain. =(
my baby of mine is at amk library studying.after that,she have lunch at kfc than return back home with her girlfriend.haha.=x that pretty vera hor.haha.she call me go find her,lucky never go.i damn lazy go out also.that duncan crazy.so sick already still go kbox until the next morning and now her throat is damn pain.still smoke.she today actually off but last min have to go back work.always don't know how to take care of herself.after that daddy called me to accompany him to go marina square.haha.he gimmi 10bucks. =)) after that,went to whampoa eat together with dad.mummy,2nd brother,wife bought so many food.waolao.she like feed pig can.the food isnt that nice actually.i also very full.all the food haven't shit out.reach home at 4plus.think going to people's park to have dinner.well,im not going to eat.so full already.still eat.really becoming a big fat pig.haha.bfer i get out of my house i read the powerpoint that charlotte send to me.remember what you say?if the day i return back to you.it shows i don't love you anymore.i read it today,i was kinda angry but still i nearly drop my tears but i never.do i even feel touch?but the thing that i know is even thou i forgive what you have done.i will never forget what we have done and the things that we said.we will not be happy like the past i guess.if never try,you never know.we already try to be together before.the out come already shown.well,i got girlfriend already.i wont give people chances to be together with me unless i change my feeling to other people.the powerpoint said that you wont repeat the history and you will treasure the chances.even chances give you,you also don't know.is all on people performance.everyone have eyes to see,ear to hear,heart to feel.

2007-05-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

today,
actually never go school
bloody teacher call my house.the phone ring so long.kinda pissed because im still sleeping.after that she say is fiona mother in.i say you mrs quek huh.she call me just to use computer to use internet to do test.need dno what code and only go school than go do.idiot.make me rush and travel down to school.just hate friday man.after school,we waited for one hour to take bus can.take bus 10 to tamp after that take bus 72 to hougang than take bus 132 back home.wendilyn accompany me go home.wanted to meet baby at novena.well,parents not at home so she come to my house and study,wendilyn was really crazy.she disturb me and jiayu like a crazy idiot.that's her.cute cute de ta.too back,her bf not in.not her bf will be laughing and getting to love her more i guess.haha.she wanted to meet her friend end up never.her mum came to amk pick her up and went back home to do housework i think.haha.send her off and left baby alone at home.i reach home,she was half studying and sleeping.went to bathe,the weather so hot.after bathe come out she was sleeping in the living room.everytime ask me accompany her study,end up she say she tired and she go on my bed and sleep.

eugene keep call me meet them.meet them at somerset at 8pm.i was late =x whole day never eat.end up baby accompany me go mos and eat than she send me to somerset and take train back to amk and go home.after that,that eugene and hock ann came.went to find minhan and his friends.they are playing.that stupid eugene keep call me play la.so stupid.im not interested and they really don't blif i don't know how to play can.that hock ann today so noisy.but very funny.they keep disturb me la.argh.well,im damn blur queen and wna sleep.accompany them and see them play.around 9plus they play finish all go smoke.but i never.abit blur.10plus than take train back to amk alone.the guys went to ton i guess.so many guys and im the only girl.is not the first time.kinda bored but really funny when with them.keep laughing.but they are very bad.keep disturb me.reach home at 11plus.

take care everyone out there.muacks <3

2007-05-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

a new me,my way,my life.
don't mess my life and just fuck off.
i'm here for you only a friend of yours.go find your girlfriend.you need her the most.whatever you say,is hard for me to believe.don't even have to fight for me cause whatever you said,i will always remember.please remove me n your pictures.the more i see it the more i feel so angry.it makes me feel that you are more using and playing me.just put more and more pictures with her even if you say you wont take.well,just thanks for everything that i've got from you whether is good or bad. =]]
today,
never attend to school.wanted to go sentosa with leon.
daddy say today will be damn hot but guess what,weather always change.nobody can predict.is raining so heavily just now.end up both of us never meet up.well,i going to meet my baby later after that,going find felicia awhile.she will be working at hougang.haha.gonna see both of them soon yeah.haha.miss felicia too.so long never meet up.girl girl she.haha.
guess,ernie still kinda angry with me. =s i miss and love her. =]]*

2007-05-02T19:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday night.was damn fcuk up about everything
was damn fucking tired of everything being with you.
after what i said,i off my phone awhile and was thinking you will call?but you didn't and i receive your message and saying i make you drop your tears.why do you even drop your tears when you don't even find that you are in the fault too.how much you say you love me so?you make me feel that you are playing with me even thou how much you say you love me.what's love to you?what's jealous and worry to you.what fuck shit is all.just fuck,mess with my life again and again like fuck shit.
do people reflex for what they have done?do they even feel that they are wrong.and even if they feel their wrong why mistakes is always repeat?whoever hurt me i will return double.even if i really treat you bad is because you treat me bad.i'm the one who start i will end it.now is you start it so i will help you continue.why not.life is a game.i know i'm stubborn.so does you.whatever i said.i will remember.do you even remember everything that you tell me?you can just change it and say you take back your words.whatever we said and hurt each other,it will always remember my mind,my life.that's why people always say i hold on the past than the future.give a person chance don't have to even tell the person.is depends how you prove and improvement that you have done,you will get the person reply str8.
whatever i have done,i know.this is what i return from you isnt it true.you say you are not.after that you message me tell me say if you don't do it i will take more granted?this two months.even if i never tell you that i give you chance,in my heart i always give you a chance but you keep hurt me too.i'm not the only one who stop us being together.maybe you think that if i give you a chance all this things won't be happen.ask yourself charlotte gung.you are the one who start a move to do all that and even take pictures.so what if i do it too.i don't find that i'm wrong and actually you are the one who stopping each other together.both of us feels that each other never reflex.since there's so much quarrels going on so what the fuck being together since we aren't happy at all.you already make me lose everything to you already.lose hope,trust,confidence.i no longer believe you.what's bad to you?treating you cold is call bad?if i really treat you bad do i even have to give bloody damn about you and even drop tears.i realise how much i love you that's why i drop my tears.after that day,i no longer drop tears.yesterday,i drop my tears again.i was damn fucking bloody angry with what you are doing and you don't even fucking understand what i'm angry.it was too late cause you still finds that the pictures are not wrong.is all about pictures!is not whether the person is str8,crook.and i don't deny she's pretty than me.even if you save other people name as girlfren and save my name as baby so what?what i see is the fact.too much things i have see.even if you explain,the one i see is the most hurt one.im better than you,didn't take pictures even thou i meet my close friends.hello,you are a active and so what if she's a str8 one?so what if i take pictures with bung.we are close friends too.this time,i take the pictures with her* is real and i mean it too.i'm not your girlfriend and i'm still jealous is because i loveyou.but after everything i really give up.we both already damn tired of everything already.so does you.what's torture to you?what about me.till now,you are still so selfish and still keep think that i don't understand how you feel and keep say so you understand how i feel?keep use this sentence to say back me.at least i unlike you put people name as girlfriend.hello,you got so many girlfriend and pretty babes out there so stop finding me and keep say sweet things and come near to me to melt my heart and keep hurt my bloody feelings and stop playing even if you say you don't and how much you love me.all sucks to the core.

today,
wake up,wanted to go back sleep.was thinking whether wanna go back to sleep anot since the weather is so nice and i'm so tired.whole night hp was off,morning than on.was suprising that she never call me.she send me a message say she worry about me.i'll not do foolish things because of you.you listen up,i already give up on you and i will not patch with you even if you ask so cause i got girlfriend and i love tanjiayu only.get it?what you say to me,now whatever i say,FIONA OH WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER.thanks for making awake always.end up,i still attend to school.morning reach school.the first person i saw was nicol.he say morning to me and i find it weird but still i did reply and smile at him in a weird way.haha.after that,sit behind alone,wendi accompany me and sit.she study but i never.was writing things.haha.when for lunch at 12.when to eat bake rice.the serving was damn full for one person.haha.nicol came to eat too and he say hi.he's kinda weird huh.but he's funny and cute actually.pretty gay.=x he went to wash hand and he come and shake hand with me with soup.i'm kinda dumb,slow and disturb by him.well,he make me smile. =]] thanks.was kinda emo in class when we having thy lesson.after lunch,went back to class.fazli gimme lollipop.hehe.and i don't know why he keep wanna take pics with me.so we take two i think.he keep disturb me also.crazy.izzat suddenly came and martin keep disturb him.he just sit beside me and ernie.and he do some stupid action and make me laugh.the whole day was quarreling with her* guess she do have friends there accompany her.especially her girlfriend.haha.well,i have friends around me cheer me up.after so long,you cheer me up and make me laugh and make me smile again.was suprise that you message me,still i will not forget what happen that day you make me drop my tears.is the past.i'm no longer angry already.haha.after that,was close with eugene.we chat alot.he's sweet and we are close again after so long?haha.not very long actually.after pie lesson finish str8 went to tamp and take 22bus to amk hub together with wendi and yz.he wanted to buy things but we miss the stop.cause we girls are sleeping.haha.so he went to amk buy.going to meet duncan soon.i miss her* hehe.muacks. <3